Dear Nikki,

You pour into those around you, the world around you. You care about everything and everyone and you have learned that you have to shut it off because you are an empath. You have to protect your mental and emotional wellbeing. You also know that you CAN NOT HAVE A MATE THAT YOU HAVE TO CONSTANTLY POUR INTO. YOU KNOW THIS. YOU KNOW THIS! Yet, you continue to subconsciously and consciously allow and choose partners you have to pour SO MUCH INTO. It is draining.

And you know what it really is? You don’t want to leave anyone behind. You want to help everyone. You want everyone to win. Its other people have done in their relationships. Why can’t I? BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT OTHER PEOPLE. And you feel bad that you can’t do it, too, when there is no need to feel bad about it. It’s not that you are NOT GOOD AT IT, it’s you don’t have the capacity because of how you are created. When you are giving to others outside of you, you don’t need to come home to give so much to someone else. You don’t want to have to give a pep talk, a lecture, a sermon, a session to someone you care intimate with every day or every other day or once a week. Deep down you are screaming, “I don’t want to have to do this in this space!” Yet, you do and you are not inspired. You resent it every time.

Nikki, you think you are being patient with us, waiting on someone. But we are being patient with you because we are waiting for you to stop connecting to lower vibrations. No one wants to be an engineer at work and at home. No one wants to teach at work and teach at home. If they do, that’s a problem of not being able to shut down and just be. They have not discovered other sides or dimensions of themselves.

OPEN UP YOUR MIND and HEART to KNOW, to RECEIVE, to be OKAY with knowing that you cannot do this in intimate spaces on the level you do this in the world. Your soul mission is not for your intimate space. It is not. It is not. You are not a failure because of it. You are not weak because of it. You are actually better and stronger because of it.

Love,

Self.

~Nikki

OPEN OCTOBER. OPEN SESAME. OPEN SAYS ME.