I noticed a pattern prior to last year. I normally would take a sabbatical in September. This would come after dealing with church responsibilities on top of dealing with my mother during Women’s Month in August. Last year and the year before that, 2024, I didn’t have a chance to take a sabbatical as my brother took ill and my dad’s needs increased. Now that both of them have transitioned to the spiritual realm, and I reflect on all that I have dealt with, I think NOW is the time to take a sabbatical. For how long is to be determined by my spirit receiving the notice to come back. I suspect a huge change in how I live, move, and exist is ahead. I thought it would happen when I turned 50 but, it was delayed. Maybe not. Maybe, it’s on time.
I feel different now that I no longer have caregiving duties. I feel different for all that I have been through since I moved into my home 5 years ago. I thought when I evolved a few years back I was getting used to how to exist with a new frame of mind but, what I realized now is I was only reading the the manual and trying out new features. Now, I am learning how to live in this new mindset or energy. It’s a big white, bright, golden, yellow energy. I don’t know if it’ the GUSTO I have been craving but, I hope so.
Also, I know I am facing the grief process and I don’t know how long that will take or what it will look like for me.
~Nikki
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