Plate Full, Cup Empty

I saw this photo on Pinterest and immediately saved it to My Positive Board. It hit me right in the center of my chest. I knew what was suffocating my soul. I am happy to let it go. I have written my letter of concern and leave of absence. It’s time to set myself free. I have errored on the side of caution until it became erroring on the side of guilt. I was concerned about how it would look to others and I was trying to do what those I looked up to had done. I was honoring them but, not my own heart, mind, soul, spirit. I thought I was doing what “GOD” wanted me to do. It seemed like the right thing to do.

As I continue to recover from caregiver burnout and be in this state of ambiguity (ugh), I know it’s time. I mean I tried it that way, struggling, being manipulated, guilted, and feeling sorry for others. And I feel my soul definitely has suffocated. My soul has been affected and possibly damaged by all that I have gone through. I wonder how much soul level damage we all have? Maybe not a lot but those huge impacts to our minds and hearts that travel to the soul. Things that crack us. Bruise us. Even break us. I am willing to find out if I am wrong about letting this go. But, I doubt it.

Souls can be restored. That is the good news.

~Nikki