The Nerve! Front and Center(al) Nervous System

Symptoms that might suggest a problem with the central nervous system include:

• emotional problems
• memory loss
• behavioural changes

I read that the nervous system is divided into two major parts; the central nervous system and the peripheral nervous system. The reason I am talking about the nervous system is because of the traumatic events I have experienced in 2024 and 2025. I want to know how can I help heal, calm, soothe my nervous system. I am experiencing caregiver burnout on top of life. I was shocked when I came to the revelation that I was living on high alert. I saw the changes in my mood become worse and my attitude become terrible. I saw my temper shorten and just an overall mood of meanness, despair, anger about everything. Frustration and then came emptiness and numbness. So here we are on a journey this month about the nervous system.

When I look at this, I can see emotional problems, memory loss (short term like forgetting appointments, mixing up appointments, forgetting my days) and definitely BEHAVIOURAL CHANGES. I started to feel like I didn’t like myself. I began to think maybe, I need more help besides therapy. At a few points, I thought about checking myself into a facility. I thought I was losing my mind. It is hard when one parent has the disease of Parkinson’s and another tragedy when the other parent is a text book narcissist and sociopath that family refuses to admit and excuses the behaviour. And this overflows into a not so good marriage. I often wish I could be like some of my siblings who pretend everything is okay. But I am not that sibling. And I guess it has affected me so much I need to recover or I will no longer be here. Or after all of this is over, I will be like many other caregivers and people who care too much (empaths). I will be left with fragments of who I use to be or worse, too exhausted to live out the rest of my days with optimism and joy.

~Nikki