In my last blog post https://nikkisconfettilife.com/2025/05/16/name-the-things-excuse-me-what-happened-to-your-plans/ I asked you to look at your plans for this year and to see where you are. I said we would meet back here to talk about it. I did my homework.

I looked at the year I am in spiritually, physically, and mentally. I looked at what I wrote down, the year I am in (it’s a numerology thing), what turning 50 means (a new book, not a chapter) and I answered the question honestly. Before I get into that, let me say, this is not an evaluation where you criticize yourself or believe that you are failing or behind. No. It’s not like that in spiritual realm. It’s a matter of journey. A life journey where you will indeed get lost, get distracted, and become bored. All you have to do is turn around, take a detour, change paths, or get back on. You can be on break at times and one would still be learning.

So, I find myself heavily distracted and burdened this leg of my journey. However, I am unburdening myself. I have sat my backpack, my load, down and I am going through it. I am removing things and people that do not belong. I found the world on my shoulders. I found the incredible weight of family matters on my shoulders. I found grief in my backpack which was not a surprise. I removed the world and a particular family matter. I kept grief. Grief and I have unfinished business. I found some deal breakers and I got rid of those.

In my backpack, there were some good things, too! My health, total health, is improving in spite of the recent diagnosis. I have had some fun. I have been a little creative but, I vow to be more creative. I’m working on taking center stage in my own life. Please don’t think in a selfish way but, think spiritually and well-being wise. Hopes, dreams, goals,how I want to live from here on out is what I am talking about. Yeah, those are some of the things I want to focus on this year. Looks like I have some momentum to get back on my journey and to learn from the distractions.

The things and people that can have me distracted do not belong to me. Well, not all of them. Not even most of them. They are not my issues to carry. I gently, firmly, in fact I insist they can have them back. It is none of my concern. And as far as the areas I am in control of, I have decided to pay more attention to them and to be intentional on living in my authenticity, gifts, talents, and callings.

~Nikki