I am guessing I had some sort of premonition about today as I titled this blog post, L is for Leave Me Alone. Today, I needed to be left alone. With so much energy in this month, it’s a mixed bag of good and not good, ebb and flow, ups and downs. It can become too much and if you don’t stop the madness before it stops you, you’re looking at a breakdown or a total shutdown. Forced.

Let me tell you from experience, that a forced shutdown is never good. A breakdown is never a good feeling. You end up saying and doing things you regret later or you go into seclusion and who knows what’s in there with you. Anxiety and depression. The blues. Anger.

There is a polite way and firm way to tell people to leave you alone. I, myself, realized that I had no more strength left to deal with my problems or anyone’s problem today. I looked at my calendar and decided I had one thing that needed to be done today. One thing. The rest could go to hell. Oh, wait, I mean, they could wait. 🙂 If I did not stop, I would risk becoming angry and moodier. I was running the risk of meltdown and being barricaded in my room.

“Dear friends and family, I am taking the day off to recharge because I am on the brink of breakdown. I do not want to talk about it. The best thing you can do is give me space until tomorrow unless it’s urgent. I love you and if you are feeling this way, I suggest you do the same.”

~Nikki #atozchallenge