CRUSHED

Crushed but not destroyed 2 Corinthians 4:8-10

2 days of anxiety, depression, grief so heavy it shut me down. I was able to meet up with my friend for coffee on Monday and then that evening I felt the shift. I knew what was happening but didn’t know to what degree. I started to panic. I don’t wanna feel anything! But it was time to “go around the lake of grief again” (inside revelation from God to me). It was time to sit with the teachers anxiety and depression.

Most would say resist. But nope. I gave in. It was ugly. Turned my phone off. No work. No nothing. Just step by step spirit led instructions.

GO AHEAD GOD, CRUSH ME.

Like olives.

Like grapes.

Like the pot on the potter’s wheel that needed to be remade.

And we are NOT done yet. BUT I’M UP and “at it” on Wednesday resisting the I’M BEHIND let me rush feeling and instead I prioritize. Like I prioritize my mental and physical well being. LET’S GOOOOOOOOOOOOO (but intentionally and very slow )

~Nikki