Happy New Year’s Eve! We made it! As we move into another calendar year, I have been doing some thinking, listening, reflecting of the year and what I would like to experience in the new year. I use the winter season to process, brainstorm, think, listen, reflect, take small steps, reserve most of my energy for the springtime or calculated moves during the winter. You know, like a bear it’s hibernation time. All of the running, chasing, eating, digesting, pooping lol has taken place. In a farmer’s sense, things have been gathered for the barn and we can eat off that this season. We can simply do some maintenance, repair, prepare.

I am a little afraid to hope. I am a little afraid to believe, to expect better after the last 18 months. So, I have thought about what I can do to move forward without the fear of being disappointed or moving without the stop and go motion. Gas and break. Gas and break like a teenager learning to drive for the first time. I believe visualization will work for me. I don’t have to hope, use faith, expect, I just have to imagine. Either way we are creating with our words, thoughts, actions and imagination. I choose visualization, words, and moving my body to get me started. I can imagine what will make my new year easier. Speaking things by choosing my words carefully using personalized affirmations and meditations without words to filter out and reconnect to my own soul. I feel like I was hijacked spiritually or ambushed and I’ve been fighting and resting cyclically this year. The word I’ve used to describe my year has been the word “rough” and it is accurate. However, I can’t use it to describe next year because next year hasn’t happened and enough time hasn’t accrued.

It was rough but, I made it. I can dwell in the it was rough or I can dwell in the I made it. I made it. Now, let me gather the lessons, the experiences, the wisdom, the good times, and take those things into this next year and season. Let me enjoy the warm hug of heat in my home and the ambiance I can create with light and soul touching meals. Let me root and ground. Let me breathe in the sharp, cold air to clear my mind. Let me find hygge in it’s heightened energy. Let me weep, let me find more joy.

I think I will start this year with 7 days off social media like Facebook, Instagram. Blogging doesn’t disturb me and it’s not a distraction. The energy is different and I find it to be the same with YouTube. So, maybe you will see in words my reflections, thoughts, processes this January. Who knows!

~Nikki