Note Entry 2-7-25

3 Words for the “collective”:

Nourish (the soul/spirit/body)

Deprogram (the mind)

De/Recondition (the mind)

The question I asked myself today is, “Did I do any of this, this year?” Through the storms, I did. I did in ways I didn’t really think about. It wasn’t elaborate but, it was intentional and mindfully done but not with these things in mind. I think most of it was done out of the necessity to survive. One way I nourished my body was by getting a massage. I need at least 3 more this year. I don’t know how it’s going to happen but, I am going to believe it will. It really helps with fibromyalgia knots and myopathy. Oh, yeah and stress. I need to begin soaking in epsom salt and using oils to help nourish my body.

I have read two books, The Four Agreements by Miguel Ruiz and The Light We Carry by Michelle Obama. I am currently reading The Courage To Be Dislike by Ichiro Kishimi nad Fumitake Koga and when I tell you this book is really deprogramming, deconditioning, and reconditioning my mind!!!!! WHEW!!!! It is challenging my thinking! My conditioning. Yet, clearing my mind in some way I can’t quite fully understand, yet.

Another thing I am doing is a dial in Bible study but it’s modern, non traditional and by studying and teaching it is reconditioning my mind. I feel that going to therapy is nourishing my mind by helping me to find solutions, reframing things, and coming to peace with the people and things I cannot change. It is helping me to hang on.

So, all along, I have been doing these things but, I forgot I had written this. But I guess it stayed with me and it reigns true. So many things have changed in my world that have changed my thoughts, mind and I have been asked by Spirit to slow down at times. “Slow down, Nicole or you may have a stroke.” I will never forget the pause when I heard that in my spirit/mind. I heard it a few times during a time I was pushing myself beyond my capacity. But here I stand in October still trudging along and moving forward.

~Nikki