Accepting and Releasing

So, there I was doing a yoga practice and in stillness it came to me there were things I needed to “accept and release”. I thought this would be the answer to several situations, really three major situations in my life. However, when trying to figure exactly how to accept and release these things, it became a bit overwhelming and I quickly became frustrated and thought, “I don’t want to deal with any of this. Why can’t it all just be over?” I know in life we may have to “accept and release” over and over a thing until we actually ACCEPT it and RELEASE it.

The next day I had a therapy session. In that session, I discussed three major things that were really disturbing my peace and the sadness of these things had me pushing back depression. I was made aware that I cannot skip over the work of accepting and releasing. It was showed to me that I was feeling frustrated because each one of my issues had many things to accept about them and many things to release. There I was trying to do all of them. I was given homework to “think of ONE thing about each situation that I could “work” on accepting and releasing. AHHHHHH….the relief my brain began to feel cannot be explained!

You mean I don’t have to try and accept all of the things about each situation at once? Why didn’t I see that? Maybe because I was too emotional about it all. No. Not too emotional. Maybe I was feeling so many different emotions I didn’t see I needed to break these issues down some. I’ll share this one thing about one of the situations I have decided to accept and release.

“I am not responsible for the destruction, deconstruction, and decay of the legacy of a religious institution. The current pastor is.” I accept this.

“I release the need to know or try to figure out how it’s all going to work out.”

I have to tell myself, “I am not responsible. I do not know. I trust God’s will and plan for the future of that institution. I am not in control. If it doesn’t survive, I will be okay.”

~Nikki