Sit down. Would you like anything to drink? Tea? Coffee? Water? Oh. Okay. Well, I wanted you to come over so I could tell you something face to face. Take a deep breath, let it out slowly. Are you ready? Yes? Okay.
“I don’t want to be what YOU want me to be in order to make you comfortable or to bring you peace.”
There. I said it.
Making you happy is not my job. Bringing you peace by way of what I want to do with my life, my spiritual journey, etc. is not my job. If it were, then who are you bending to, to make happy? Anyone? Or do you get to follow your God, your spiritual journey, your dreams, your hopes and aspirations without the burden of pleasing others and making them feel comfortable? Ah. I see. You get to choose. I don’t. How is that okay? How is that free will? How is that freedom?
Becoming what you want me to become, doing what you want me to do, doing it like you do it because you feel or say you know it’s the right way is not freedom to me. It is bondage. Why would you want me to be in boundage to you? Do you not realize this ungodly control? It’s giving cult and witchcraft vibes. Your spell is “please me” and your religious man made rules or desire to manipulate me is cultish. What religion is God anyway? What religion was Jesus? Ah…I digress. Back to you.
I love you so much. I really do. I love you so much I want you to choose how to express your spiritual being freely. I don’t want to control you. So, I brought you here today to let you know I’ll be true to “my” calling and I will answer it with free will. Not your will. I will express it in a building or in the mountains. I will infuse it with my ordained personality.
Try not to be so rigid and offended. Try on your own freedom of expression. It’s custom made just for you.
~Nikki
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