How do you really feel about your year? It’s good to be honest but it’s also good to reflect on the good and the growth. There doesn’t have to be some big, humongous, profound “thing” that you achieved. If that happened then CONGRATULATIONS AND GOOD JOB!!!! It indeed should be celebrated. But have you ever thought about highlighting the so call small things that were good? The small growth? Slow progress is still progress. The simple things that were good are still good.

I said it Sunday as I spoke at my home church, “growth is continuous”. Never stop growing, learning, improving. For the first time in a long time, I truly feel good about this year and I didn’t improve much in a category I have been trying to improve drastically in. Yet, I celebrate the fact there was increase and my discipline improved some. I also see clearly where in this journey I seem to lose control (and sense lol). There were tight times but not as tight as there had been in previous years. This is a signal that I am getting better. I lean into this thought heavily as I have evidence and it helps me not to beat up on myself.

I never thought I would be able to “count it all joy” as it relates to my struggles this year and my lows. I can see it now as things that helped me to align with Source and my higher self. I can see it as darkness that called to the light within me. I can see it as a flashlight to show me things about myself that needed some work and things I simply needed to sit with or walk with. You know, it’s okay to be sad, feel angry, disappointed and confused. It’s okay not to know. It’s okay to be uncomfortable with situations and even with myself.

Breathe. It’s New Year’s Eve. Inhale the Winter Season. Get some rest and revitalization. You’ve done well.

~Nikki

I love you. Thanks for hanging out and in there with me all year.