Helping myself is what I have been doing during my trials and tribulations. I help myself by actively seeking the help I need professionally and spiritually. I help myself by moving my body. I help myself by eating better. This week I saw my primary care doctor. I am still struggling with my A1C (diabetes) but, I am SLOWLY losing weight. It’s because I can eat a healthy breakfast, lunch, dinner most of the time and I exercise regularly for a person with Rheumatoid and other issues. But the problem is when I binge eat, snack insanely, or have days of I don’t want to cook because I am tired! Stressed! Overwhelmed! Anxious, worried, depressed, in a mood. You get it.

I was down about the news but, I expected it. It did go down a tiny bit and I decided to be happy about that. My doctor and I agreed to increase the meds but, the compromise was if I can’t tolerate it we go back down to a better dosage. BUT, I will have to do much better controlling my stress eating.

I thought about what’s been pulling me along and pulling me out of the slumps. You know like being sad and beating up on myself about my A1C numbers that morning and choosing to say to myself, “Hey! Knock it off! You can do better. You will do better. You start now. It went down a little. Despise not small beginnings (again lol). I also helped myself to all of the sources and books I have read overtime written by others. I think about the quotes, wisdom, affirmations, healthy and positive podcast and YouTube channels from people who share what they know. Yes, the blogs, too. You are one of those people. I am one, also. We help ourselves to the healthy, sweet and savory buffet of wisdom and knowledge to help us out of the muck and mire of life. We latch on to a sage, a spiritual mother or father, our faith, our past experiences of making it through other dark times. People rush to us with encouragement, hugs, and virtual hugs.

YAY US! Thank you! Thank us!

Love, Nikki