Last year, I let go of some people, circles, and things. I put some barriers around certain things and distance between myself and some people. It was a challenge for me and freeing at the same time. It was a challenge because I struggled with worry. I wondered what they were saying about me. I wondered what lies and rumors were being told. What truths? Lol! Why was I worried about these things? Because I wasn’t there to defend or confirm.

Letting go gives me a certain level of anxiety. Am I doing the right thing? Did I give them a fair chance? Or did I give enough chances? Is it me? Will they talk about me? Will they lie about the situation? Will they not like me anymore? Did I do the right thing? I feel bad about letting go. I feel these things although I know letting go is the best thing for me to do. Letting go triggers anxiety for me. I don’t want to hurt anyone or make anyone upset. (The trauma of disappointing others is real) I swear people who appear to be experts at letting go will have you thinking something is wrong with you because you have a hard time letting go.

Letting go is a process and after you let go there can be another process. Here is the good news, it gets easier the more you let go and it gets easier over time. It still can be daunting or painful or both. It all depends on what/who you are letting go of or removing from your life.

This month I have let go of two people as fast as they came into my life, they were gone. I felt a tiny bit of anxiety but just like last year, the RELIEF was greater than the anxiety. I finally felt like I’d earned something in the area of letting go. I really didn’t run the gamut of thoughts, worries, etc. I would have ran in the past. Hot dog! I think I may have earned my brown belt in letting go and removing myself from people and situations I don’t need to be part of. It’s not personal but it’s personal.

Oh and lean into the relief feeling. This will help you TREMENDOUSLY to move forward.

~Nikki