I’d been ruminating over a business decision. I’d been ruminating over a personal situation that I later realized wasn’t them it was my own feelings about me. I’d been pushing myself for weeks with a day of rest here and there. I’ve been dealing with some new health issues. And as I was grappling with the business decision I heard, “Just stop.”

“Just stop everything and don’t try to figure out the feeling you are feeling of being in the midst of some sort of big shift. It will come to you clearer tomorrow. Just go to bed.” As I was searching on Pinterest, I started seeing some knitted garments I’d never seen before. I also saw this:

The sudden urge or need to just shut everything down was on me. However, I still needed some cash flow. Yet, I know that God will provide. But then again, shouldn’t I take advantage of the opportunities before me? Yes, and yes to the latter but with guidance. I had some idea that being a vendor at the usual two shows would take a toll on me. I thought I would have time to recover. But what I wasn’t expecting was new health issues and the low Vitamin D results would factor in. Although, I am taking double the amount per doc. I did not account for unpredictable bouts of depression and anxiety.

It was like a halt, and then a change in direction. Suddenly, I wanted something different. I wanted more of something but I wasn’t clear. I went to bed. I slept well. The next morning, I gained some clarity and later confirmation. The season of stillness is approaching and I usually feel things before they happen. I wanted two more profitable opportunities before the year ended. I think this one that is before me will be enough and God will provide. I am ready to shut down and to be still. In fact, I am thinking of taking a break from my personal social media page for the month of December. 31 days.

~Nikki