My soul is restless. I yearn for something deeper as it relates to the things of God and the spiritual realm. I am not sure if a shift is coming spiritually but it feels like it. It’s giving me some anxiety. I’d like to know what’s next and how to proceed. I’ve been asking God to order my steps, guide me, show me and to give me clarity. I am clear that I am in the wrong space and I need more. I need to be in a place of where there is a love for God and the people of God by the shepherd. Don’t get me wrong. I am not looking for perfection but I am looking for maturity and growth. I am looking to learn or to teach. But in many of these organized places of religion there is a pecking order.

I do not know what God wants me to do or how to do it. At least about whatever this next is. It feels like a departure. I feel like cleansing my space and place. I feel like cleansing my body inside and out. I feel like burning sage (Christians will be upset about this) and lighting a candle. I feel like fixing a bath of salts and lemon. I feel like putting on all white or linen clothing. I want to hear some soothing words or some good teaching of the Word of God. A real in-depth Bible Study.

My soul is restless

I feel anxious and a bit distressed

Maybe it’s all of the changes happening on the inside

Maybe it’s because it’s been a while since I’ve cried

Maybe it’s because I have been in the wrong space for so long

Maybe it’s because I don’t know what it going on

I’ll be still and know and trust God in this space

It won’t be long before my feet find a solid place

~Nikki