Rising Fear, Rising Faith

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I live in a city where senseless and violent crimes take place daily. I live in a city where educational programs are often squandered and where politics lean towards the influence of the wealthy. This produces fear, anger, and flight. This produces arguments and lethargy.

Now factor in raising children, health problems, unemployment, starving artists, underpaid teachers and overpaid leaders, aging parents, debts, low paying jobs, past catching up, uncertainty about the future, marriage, divorce, single life and dating, finances, careers, family matters… You’ve got a whirlwind of fear dancing about your mind, body, and spirit. Torture. Did I say whirlwind? I meant a category 5 tornado.

Where do you stand? (Stand Nikki? I’m laying down and taking a nap. I’m drinking. I’m chain smoking. I’m overeating. I’m not eating. I’m confrontational. I’m not doing anything. I’m not sleeping.) Let me rephrase, “How do you stand?” I heard an intelligent being say, by the name of Nicole Jackson, “Rising fear is met with a rising active faith.” I love to be the bearer of good news. So, in other words “You have to meet fear with action! A faith that DOES SOMETHING. FAITH IS AN ACTION WORD.”

All of the knowledge/wisdom you’ve absorbed from the Creator, Shamans, Priests, Gurus, Ancestors, Life, etc. It’s time to use it. Prayer and meditation is a two way conversation between you and the universe (known to many buy God, Creator, Divine, etc.) Let prayer and meditation pour into you instructions you need “for such a time as this.” Perhaps this is new to you. You maybe a young adult. Listen, wisdom is all around you. It’s in your parents, grandparents, mentor, your beliefs, a book, mistakes, this blog. It’ll come to you Young Jedi.

Have no fear. Instead, activate your rising faith.

~Nikki

 

At the Wrong Table

 

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A friend said to me a nutritionist told her you’ll know you are on the right diet/eating the right things if you are not hungry all the time. I was thinking you’ll know you are with the right person if you are not hungry all the time. Hungry for affection, attention, love, appreciation, time, commitment, faithfulness etc. I understand missing a meal from time to time but, if the person is STARVING you…you’re probably at the wrong table.

~Nikki

Confidence Seed. Take Root.

 

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Where there is smoke, there is fire.
Where there is fear, there is a lack of confidence. You’ve got the gift or gifts but, what’s holding you back? Is it the thought that you can’t do it? Maybe you sorta kinda feel that you can but, you just don’t know.

Confidence is more than saying I can do it. Confidence is a strong conviction that you CAN do it. It has to take ROOT in your core being. But how? For those of us that lack self confidence. I’m writing this via the spirit, on the fly, given to me as I type. So, here we go in no order or logic to my knowledge:

Some of us never had confidence so to speak (I believe you are born with it but, many times it needs to be nurtured as a child. Hence, confidence building. Then there are others that just have it). If you were a child brought up in an environment that tore your confidence down daily, you may not have been fortunate enough to have had the mental fortitude to survive that. On the other hand, some of you in that environment held on to that voice on the inside telling you  “you can do it” but, you’re still lacking the confidence. Illnesses, accidents, tragedies, huge setbacks, have a way of merely destroying our confidence. If you allow it and let’s be honest, some of us have allowed it. No guilt.

Confidence comes from knowing that you’re already equip with some knowledge of how to manifest your gift and knowing that whatever you don’t know will come to you via research, another person that has already paved the way, or stumbling upon a method through trial and error. Call it divine intervention or instructions. “Something” told me to…I just so happen to be at…
Confidence is strengthened by trial and error. You gain the “how to” through the “don’t do.”-Nicole Jackson. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Mistakes are teachers. Thank the teacher. Accept the answer and move forward.
Confidence is planted by action. You’ve got confidence. You’ve been SAYING IT, THINKING IT but have you been DOING IT? IMAGINE a seed 🌱 in your hand. And you look at it and say “I can plant it. I will plant it. I am planting it.” You lay down and you “think about planting it. See yourself planting it” but you’re still holding the seed in your hand! When you ACTUALLY take  ACTION is when the seed will get planted. The more you do your gift, the more confidence grows and deepens its ROOT in your soul. In your psyche. Doing your gift is the watering, sunlight, weeding.
You want your confidence to take root? Don’t mind the weather. Don’t mind the naysayers and the negative thoughts that come to you discourage you. If you do, you’ll be digging up the confidence seed. Bonus: Confidence also can be planted in any season.
This is all the Holy Spirit gave me and I have shared it with you!

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~Nikki

Bad Energy Family Members. Bingo! You’re It!

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Let’s cut to the chase. Maybe you don’t know YOU are the bad energy toting family member. Here are clues and what your energy does to others who don’t know how, don’t have the heart or guts to confront you.

Certain family members no longer show up or limit their time in your space because they can’t deal with your behavior
You’ve been asked several times to tone it down but you don’t because you don’t see anything wrong
You can’t wait to get a rise out of a particular family member. Even though they’ve told you to stop
You feel good when you make other people upset or you think nothing about it
You refuse to apologize for embarrassing family members
Family members cringe at your off colored, off putting remarks and you go “What?”
You get offended and defensive when confronted about your behavior
Deep down inside you know you have a problem and your behavior is a problem but you don’t have the courage to admit it and tackle the real issues behind your mean spirit
You say “So what. Others are too sensitive. Lighten up!”

Your behavior:
Affects the mood of every family event
Makes others feel demeaned in an environment they should feel uplifted
Makes others feel constricted because they have to avoid you at all cost
Makes others feel attacked when they should feel love
Makes others ill when you arrive
Makes others feel rushed because they know they can’t stay long and enjoy other family because they can’t take your bad energy

Figure out what the real problem is in your private life. Take a good look in the mirror at what you do and what you say and ask yourself why can’t you stop doing the things that cause harm and rifts in the family? Rather it’s a coming to Jesus, Self or Therapist moment, I hope you build up the nerve to come. As you are.

~Nikki

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Lesson. By Nikki

 

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Lesson. By Nikki aka F.Y.E ©2014
Bury your heart deep in me
I will keep it safe with me
She may have loved you
But she never loved you
She was thinking of him
Never thinking of you
I can’t pay for another woman’s
Mistake
I can’t pay for your pain
But if the student is ready
I can teach you how to love
Again

 

~Nikki

IF YOU’RE CRAZY AND YOU KNOW IT…

 

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Saturday Morning Coffee Musings

YOU’RE CRAZY.
IN RELATION TO YOUR DREAMS, WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU’RE CRAZY, THEY ARE SAYING YOUR DREAMS ARE BEYOND THEIR SCOPE OF POSSIBILITY, REALITY AND IMAGINATION. -NICOLE JACKSON
Yesterday, I talked to a publisher for one of my clients. He told me how it took him 3 years to leave HIS JOB as a top guy with 700 employees under him. He said people kept telling him MAN YOU’RE CRAZY. Then he said plus I was mid age. Then I just couldn’t fight it anymore and here I am. Sometimes, I pinch myself and can’t believe I’m living my dream.
Me: Usually when they say YOU’RE CRAZY, in relation to your dreams, it’s a sure thing you’re on the right path.
Him: I can see that!
Me: Yeah, just think of all the people with a success story, even in the Bible, (he’s Christian), who were told THAT’S CRAZY and things worked out.
Him: Right! It’s been 9 years. An unbelievable 9 years.
Me: YOU’RE CRAZY means it’s outside their scope of reality, possibility & imagination. That’s all.
Him: WOW. Are you in ministry?
Me: Something like that.

 

 

Caged Bird

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The bird cage is open…SET YOURSELF FREE. I know you’ve been locked up in the cage of self pity, hatred, self loathing, sadness, depression, people pleasing, fix everything and everybody, debt, dead end job, fake/bad relationship, fear, etc etc….The door to the cage was never locked! It’s a mind game. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even sing anymore. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even fly anymore. But just because you don’t doesn’t mean you can’t. Choose to SING Choose to FLY.

Monday Morning Week POW WOW

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Monday Morning WEEK POW WOW
It’s a productive week and the atmosphere is conducive for miracles & favor
I stand firm in my beliefs without stooping to low level energies
I choose peace to keep my creative ideas flowing
I feed my body good food and exercise
I operate in possibilities
I give my time and energy to worthy recipients
Money & Promotion is attracted to me like a magnet

Standing Firm without Stooping

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In YOUR CHOICE of faith (or no choice) & beliefs, I believe you should stand firm in it but, I don’t believe you should attack, demean, insult opposing views. It’s possibly a sign of weakness, biases, a dislike or hate for the topic, other group or the person. Those things cause you to stoop to low blows, lashing and insults.

If you don’t like Christians and you’re having a “discussion” can you be objective or not? If you don’t like Muslims, can you be objective in your discussion? If you don’t like gay people can you be objective in your discussion?  If a person is not vegan can you have a civil discussion?  Or do you become instantly defensive? Do you become an instant jerk? An instant butt hole? Furthermore, you may have a problem if you enjoy being mean and insulting others. You may have a heart problem, a love problem and perhaps you need healing or deliverance. Perhaps, enlightenment.

The only way to stand firm in what you believe WITHOUT STOOPING is to stand firm in LOVE. Stand firm and operate in love with your attitude, your demeanor and your choice of words. If the other person is becoming defensive and offensive in their tone, language or gestures then end the conversation immediately. It’s not going anywhere but downhill from there. The next thing you know you’ll be stooping to their level of nastiness.

For the record, I believe what I believe and that’s pretty much the end of the story. YET, I’m always interested in other viewpoints mainly because I like to know how people think and why they think that way. Plus, I rarely get upset about one not sharing my views because I realize my views are mines and not theirs! You believe what you believe and that’s your story. At the end of the day can we be civil? Can we work together? Can we be kind to one another? Different viewpoints, ideals, religions, cultures, shape the world and make it very interesting. You live here and I live here now let’s do lunch.

When I find myself dealing with a person who wants to argue instead of discuss, or a person who’s decided how they are going to deal with me because of my religion or my opposing views, I JUST DON’T DEAL. 😊

~Nikki

 

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Table of Faith for One

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It must be difficult being the only one in your family that believes in YOU. There you are born into a family were seeds of doubt have been planted and watered generation after generation.

Crazy talk is what they call it when you think about becoming what you dream of. First of all, you have no business dreaming. No one in this family dreamed of anything or at least had the nerve to verbalize it, let alone the gall to make plans.

You’ve got to have some kind of faith to believe you can do it when no one else in your family does. Family is suppose to believe in you and be supportive but that’s not always the case. You’re courageous stepping out there into the unknown in pursuit of something different. Is not what this family offers good enough for you? It’s not about what the family offers or if their goals for you are not good enough. It’s about what the universe has to offer you and about YOUR OWN GOALS. You’ll never be happy doing what other people want you to do and you’ll never know if you can do anything if you don’t try and try and try again.

Prepare to be seated at a table for one many times in this journey to fulfill your dreams. It’s lonely at the top they say but, what about when it’s lonely at the bottom in a room full of family?

I pray your strength. I pray comfort, love, and the peace of the Creator surround you every step of the way as you free your family and prepare the way for a new generation to be free to BE. Free to try, to succeed, to do something different and to still be loved. No matter what.

P.S. You may as well enjoy the view!
~Nikki