Sunday Morning Coffee Musings: The Thrill Is Gone

So, I’ve been dating almost immediately after my last relationship (yes, so soon) but, lately I have NOT been feeling “it”. Heavy sigh. The thrill is gone. No one interests me and the interest I did have in one particular person seems to be fading fast. I think it may be more “me” than him. He is who he is and I am who I am. And I am who I am becoming. I don’t think you should ask a person to change their personality to fit your world. Habits? Maybe. Pet peeves? Maybe. But personality? No. So, what’s going on with me? What happened to the thrill of dating? Why am I easing to a stop? Or being urged to pause temporarily?

What was dropped in my spirit last week, “Nikki, temporarily let go of the very thing you desire to get the very thing you desire.” Are you thinking what I am thinking? Probably not. I was thinking, “WOW. I get it.” I am too wrapped up in it. I’m thinking about it too much. I’m trying too hard to manifest it. I am trying to feel something that isn’t there. I’m trying to wait and see when there is nothing to wait or see. I’m avoiding the inevitable. I need to call a time out. “Coach, I need to sit this one out.”

Also, I have THINGS to do. I have pressing things to do. However, it seems as if what I am being asked to do, per Spirit, is not to STOP but to PAUSE. I need to get started on my life’s work. I need to finish the third book. Hopefully, I will have some vendor opportunities this fall/winter for my crochet items. These are more pressing issues than dating at this time. I do believe I was given that message because it will significantly give me the balance I need between my life work and my personal life.

~Nikki