One morning when my daughter was a baby and I was on my way to work, I recall being extremely upset. I don’t remember what my daughter’s father said or did to make me so upset that early in the morning, but I do remember driving on the expressway fighting back tears and anger. I do remember wanting to wish ill will on him, but holding myself at bay. I remember feeling immense mixed emotions. And I said “I am so angry, I can’t even pray!” Immediately, I heard a voice saying: “I will pray for you.” I wasn’t sure if it was the Holy Spirit or Jesus or an angel. It really doesn’t matter.
Yesterday and this morning I am dealing with depression and some anxiety. It was late when I got up and I laid there and just prayed some. I said, “I just don’t know what to pray anymore as I feel I may say the wrong things out of frustration.” I did not have an appetite yesterday, but ate dinner. I don’t have one today, but I have eaten lunch as I was urged to do in my spirit. I asked the Holy Spirit to pray for me and then I began to do my part. I wait for strength and change of mood and I “do” as much as I can. Yesterday, I could just do the basics and today, I am typing, sharing this with you. I have eaten.
Here is something, the entire time you are in a dark place of depression or anxiety, God is sending you messages. God is in touch with you. It could be the call from a parent, something that makes you laugh, sun on your face, an angel number with a message, a quote, something that you read, things brought to your remembrance…a number of small brief things. Inches of rope in your hope that “This moment too shall pass.” I want to encourage you, and hopefully others that have love ones that have moments like these, to let them wait and do as much as they can. Even if it is very little to you. Encourage them for the simple things. “That’s great you sat outside for a while. That’s good you got something down to eat. Eating will give you strength.” You don’t have to run over and slap oil on their heads or pray demons away. Sometimes just waiting with them, praying on your end, and encouraging is enough. My soul is waiting.
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Niki, I hope by the time you read this you are feeling better. One thing I know is that it is true, this too shall pass. It always has and always will.
Thank you Rick! I am feeling so much better this morning and back to my upbeat smiling self!
Nikki, such a beautiful and candid post. If we’re honest, too, we ALL have those moments. Thank you for sharing yours with us. Just last week, our pastor shared a wonderful message on this very topic, entitled “And It Came to Pass.” It’s a phrase used A LOT in the Bible (like, 344 times), and many of us just let the phrase run right past us. We were reminded, however, that everything is really temporary, including hard moments … thus, the deeper meaning of the phrase. So glad today is better for you – hugs of appreciation!
Amen! Hugs and Love to you!
I am glad you are feeling much better. The Lord sure knows how to reach us in our time of depression, anxiety and stress. It is well with you my sister.