Though the pressures of life seems to weigh you down
And you don’t know which way to turn
God is concerned and He’s working it out for you- He’s Working It Out, Shirley Caesar

I don’t see anything changing. In fact, I see things getting worse. Well, that’s not completely true. I see some things changing and turning in my favor financially. I see favor in the area of my creativity. But in one particularly important area of my life, I don’t see change. I see things getting worse. I see things coming to a crash and burn and there is nothing or very little I can do about it. What do I do? What do you do when the pressures of life seem to weigh you down? When it feels like the world is on your shoulders? No. I don’t want to compare my cross to Jesus or yours and for you to tell me to suck it up or be happy because well, I don’t have that type of weight on my shoulders. I certainly wouldn’t tell you that.

The weight we feel is very real because the pressures of life are very real. At some point and time we all go through extremely difficult times and seasons. One thing I know for sure, if we don’t find a way to relieve the pressures of life we will pop. We must find positive, safe, healthy ways to relieve pressure that does not cause harm to ourselves and others. I have blogged many times on ways to do that from breathing techniques to prayer to therapy to a combination of many things.

Yesterday was such a lovely day. Today was such a disturbing day. I found myself wrestling early this morning before I could finish coffee or finish enjoying my pre-game before service, CBS Sunday Morning. Some hell broke loose and I have been simmering all day. Oh, I was wrestling with my emotions, reactions, resisting the urge to operate full force in anger. Perhaps, a blind rage would be correct. But, I sought the Lord, He heard, and He answered.

“Put down your stone. You are right to be angry. But the actions you wish to take would not be righteous (in right standing with God) because it would be done purely through anger and flesh. Not anger and sifted through spirit. Sit down and listen. I have messages for you through my Word.” So, I sat in my anger and listened to service today. I understand more of what is going on but, I do not understand fully. I can see why taking the action I was thinking about taking would have NOT looked good for me. I still don’t have all the answers as to WHY this is happening in my life. Why is it happening to the other person. I do know I don’t want any of this to be happening.

There is a saying that you’re unhappy with your life because you are seeing things the way you want them to be instead of the way they are. You’re damn right. I don’t want them to be this way. However, looking at them as they are doesn’t make me any happier. I don’t think this quote is about injustices. I don’t think this quote can be applied to every area of life. Not many quotes can and not many scriptures can. There is a time and a place for everything. This is not the time. This is not the place. However, wisdom and discernment is king and queen over this particular time, for this particular season of this particular thing.

I will have to trust that God is concerned and is working it out for me and the other person. I guess turbulence on my departure is something I didn’t anticipate but, I knew it wouldn’t be a smooth ride.

~Nikki

God cares
I’m so glad to know He cares
I’m so glad to know He cares
And He’s working it out for you –He’s Working It Out, Shirley Caesar