In the MEANTIME of A SET TIME

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There is an appointed time for certain things and no matter how bad you want it to hurry up and arrive, no matter what you try to do to speed up the time, it’s not going to get there any faster. God, the Universe, has a set time for certain manifestations, destinies, freedoms, and victories.

I remember wanting to be free from a certain contract and it took almost a year because the person refused to sign a release form. It was hell waiting it out. Until, I decided it would get here when it got here. I went on doing the best I could to live my life, focus on the good times, and being a mother.

A few days ago I received the exact court date of my hearing for disability. I didn’t know how I felt about it as I was hoping the judge would approve without me going to court. It’s been 2 years and 6 months. The proof is before him. I opted to have a neutral feeling about it until I could process my emotions. I’d already talked to my therapist about my feelings. So, the next day, I decided to claim it as a day of victory and not obsess over it. It’s the set time, an appointed time, that I cannot change. I have to remind myself that I and my legal team have done everything in the natural. It is up to God to do the supernatural at the appointed time.

~Nikki

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Peace and Plenty Notes 1

 

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As you may or may not know, the journey I am taking this year is a journey of liberation. The actions I am taken at the age of 42 are legendary. I have linked this with an angel number and the legendary Jackie Robinson. Well, on this journey I have books to help me and one of those books is Peace and Plenty: Finding Your Path to Financial Serenity by Sarah Ban Breathnach. I want to share some of the journey with you in hopes it will help you along the way, too.

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~Nikki

Sunday Morning Coffee Musings: Living with Emotional Scars

How do you do it? You’ve survived the incident, the accident, the situation, the divorce, the bad breakup, childhood trauma, but how do you live with the scars these things have left behind?

Some physical scars we look at on our body and we can tell you how we go that scar. It could have been simple as being a child and taking a tumble or as horrific as surviving abuse. We know these and many other things leave emotional scars that people can not see, yet often raises it’s ugly head in the way we react to things, do things, our thought process and maybe who we become. Physical scars can heal on their own most of the time or with some assistance and care from us or others. However, emotional scars are much more complex and are hidden deep within. And for some of us we have a lot of them and we also need some assistance in healing them.

I’ve been trying to recover from some deep emotional wounds through therapy. Yes, God has and is doing his part to help me heal but, “we” (God and I) thought I may need to seek one God has given the gift of counseling to, to help me wade through the deep murky swamp. Besides God and godly counsel, you yourself have to figure out ways to live with emotional scars.

I woke up to a bright and sunny quiet Sunday morning. I often feel that nature is an elixir for bad moods or a cloudy head. Nature helps you to sort out things. Watching the waves of the ocean or the flow of a river or the stillness of a lake. Nature raises your vibration and resonates with the energy on the inside of you.  Even gardening is healing or taking care of a plant is healing. In these things the Creator can speak to you and heal you.

Reading books on the subject matter you are dealing with. You gain tools, discover ideas, you realize someone else has been there, too and they not only survived they thrived to help you and others through their book. It’s powerful holding a book that helps you to understand you and helps move you through  the pain.

Prayer and Meditation can heal you. A practice of prayer and thanksgiving. The more gratitude you have for what you have the more your focus changes. The more thankful you are for the survival the more ways to heal will show up. The more you find ways to help others who went through what you went through the more healing you receive. Meditation can be music, it can be sitting with your legs crossed humming, it could be sitting on the couch with light flooding in from the outside, it can be a candle lit and you talking with your Creator. Meditation for me is always powerful. Meditation can even be a good night’s sleep which is how this came to me to put in a blog and publish to the world in an effort to help one person make it through the day. To reach one person and help them discover a way to heal their emotional scars and to live with love, joy, peace, and gratitude and most of all forgiveness. I am praying for us.

~Nikki

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Through therapy, if you need it, books, nature, prayer and meditation I heal. I am finding my authentic self through healing with therapy and the book Something More: Excavating Your Authentic Self by Sarah Breathnach. Here is a link to her book.

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Hostile Work Environment

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Monday Work Force: One thing I know for sure, a hostile work environment is not something you are suppose to endure for a long period of time. It will make you stronger but, it can also harden your heart and make you bitter. It can disturb your health. It has to change (even if you have to be the positive change) or you have to move. I remember working at a very large and prestigious computer repair company and I had a manager who didn’t like me from day one because he said I thought I could do whatever I wanted to do. You see, he didn’t understand my favor. I told him “You will be moved before I will. Trust me. I have seen God move folks that didn’t like me that were trying to disturb my peace.” Sure enough he was moved. However, I have seen God move me from a hostile environment because it affected my health. I knew I had to go because my peace of mind was everything. And even on that job my coworkers and I endured some hostile people. We formed a circle and prayed and they were removed plus we were given the wisdom and strength to deal with it until they were removed. I don’t put up with hostile environments period on the job. I came to work, enjoy my coworkers, make money and go home. I certainly don’t put up with it at home. And if I have to be in one I get in there, do what I came/come to do and go home.

~Nikki