And Now I will Do Me

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It takes you about 12 years to realize you’ve been preprogrammed by your parents, environment, religion, and society. Some of us wake up startled and angry. For others it’s a “coming to yourself” and we sit and ponder.

No, I don’t like pink. No, I don’t want to wear my hair like you wear your hair. No, I don’t want to be a teacher, doctor, work on this crazy job, anymore. No, I don’t necessarily believe someone’s going to literally burn in a pit of fire 🔥 because they didn’t believe what I was raised to believe. No, I don’t think I have to choose classical music over hip hop but, I can like them both. And as a matter of fact, I do not like green eggs and ham. I do not like them Sam I am!!!!!

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Whether you’re in your mid 30’s switching gears or early 60’s getting a divorce, it’s obvious for this final act YOU WILL NOW DO YOU. YOU WILL NOW DO AND BE WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT AND OTHERS CAN GET WITH IT, OR GET GONE. You’re going to say what you really think and what you really feel without being a jerk but, oh your going to stand firmly in your core beliefs. You’re not nodding your head with the masses but, in your heart yelling no! And if the teacher calls on you, you’re done giving textbook answers.

I know blue doesn’t bring out your eyes out but, you love blue!!!! I know, they think you’re crazy at this age, with all of those degrees and now you want to open up a consignment shop. They are right. You’re crazy enough to FINALLY DO YOU. Look at all of the people around you that have done what they wanted to do. They were no more special than you. They too were not all in their 20’s. They too were called nuts 🔩 and bananas. Plus, you’ve got plenty of company.

It’s high time you answer the call on the inside of you. After all, it’s not calling “them” it’s calling YOU.

~Nikki, From Saturday Morning Musings with Coffee 🍵

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What’s the Occasion?

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Sunday Morning Coffee Musings

I don’t know the specifics of the occasion but, I do know it’s time to rise to it. It takes strength to rise. It takes courage to rise. Think about all the muscles at work when you rise from a seated position. Think about how much more strength when you’re weak and you have to rise. Some of us will need a little more strength. Some of us may need a hand.

I myself, need the the courage to rise to the occasion in my life. It’s time for me to be brave. I must confess, I’m not feeling very brave. I’m a little timid about rising to my call in my life. That’s my occasion. Why are you afraid Nikki? Well, I’m afraid I might do the wrong thing. I’m afraid I might mess it up. I’m afraid I might not do it the way others think I should and they will talk about me. It’s not just fear. It’s a paralyzing fear stemming from childhood.

So here we are. Some searching for strength and others for courage. Perhaps, both. We don’t have to search too far because it’s already in us. What we need is a made up mind to rise… No matter the outcome. What we need is knowing that it will all work out and we will learn along the way and this will help us to build more strength and courage to keep going forward. We can’t be afraid of trial and error. We can’t be ashamed if we make a mistake. We’ve been taught these things are bad things. All of our mistakes and failures in school, in life, on the job, by family friends and strangers are often HIGHLIGHTED. Don’t we do the same to others?

Sigh. Yet, it’s still time. The occasion is knocking gently at your door. Patiently, waiting on you to gather the strength and the courage to rise.

~Nikki

IF YOU’RE CRAZY AND YOU KNOW IT…

 

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Saturday Morning Coffee Musings

YOU’RE CRAZY.
IN RELATION TO YOUR DREAMS, WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU’RE CRAZY, THEY ARE SAYING YOUR DREAMS ARE BEYOND THEIR SCOPE OF POSSIBILITY, REALITY AND IMAGINATION. -NICOLE JACKSON
Yesterday, I talked to a publisher for one of my clients. He told me how it took him 3 years to leave HIS JOB as a top guy with 700 employees under him. He said people kept telling him MAN YOU’RE CRAZY. Then he said plus I was mid age. Then I just couldn’t fight it anymore and here I am. Sometimes, I pinch myself and can’t believe I’m living my dream.
Me: Usually when they say YOU’RE CRAZY, in relation to your dreams, it’s a sure thing you’re on the right path.
Him: I can see that!
Me: Yeah, just think of all the people with a success story, even in the Bible, (he’s Christian), who were told THAT’S CRAZY and things worked out.
Him: Right! It’s been 9 years. An unbelievable 9 years.
Me: YOU’RE CRAZY means it’s outside their scope of reality, possibility & imagination. That’s all.
Him: WOW. Are you in ministry?
Me: Something like that.

 

 

Caged Bird

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The bird cage is open…SET YOURSELF FREE. I know you’ve been locked up in the cage of self pity, hatred, self loathing, sadness, depression, people pleasing, fix everything and everybody, debt, dead end job, fake/bad relationship, fear, etc etc….The door to the cage was never locked! It’s a mind game. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even sing anymore. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even fly anymore. But just because you don’t doesn’t mean you can’t. Choose to SING Choose to FLY.

Monday Morning Week POW WOW

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Monday Morning WEEK POW WOW
It’s a productive week and the atmosphere is conducive for miracles & favor
I stand firm in my beliefs without stooping to low level energies
I choose peace to keep my creative ideas flowing
I feed my body good food and exercise
I operate in possibilities
I give my time and energy to worthy recipients
Money & Promotion is attracted to me like a magnet

Standing Firm without Stooping

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In YOUR CHOICE of faith (or no choice) & beliefs, I believe you should stand firm in it but, I don’t believe you should attack, demean, insult opposing views. It’s possibly a sign of weakness, biases, a dislike or hate for the topic, other group or the person. Those things cause you to stoop to low blows, lashing and insults.

If you don’t like Christians and you’re having a “discussion” can you be objective or not? If you don’t like Muslims, can you be objective in your discussion? If you don’t like gay people can you be objective in your discussion?  If a person is not vegan can you have a civil discussion?  Or do you become instantly defensive? Do you become an instant jerk? An instant butt hole? Furthermore, you may have a problem if you enjoy being mean and insulting others. You may have a heart problem, a love problem and perhaps you need healing or deliverance. Perhaps, enlightenment.

The only way to stand firm in what you believe WITHOUT STOOPING is to stand firm in LOVE. Stand firm and operate in love with your attitude, your demeanor and your choice of words. If the other person is becoming defensive and offensive in their tone, language or gestures then end the conversation immediately. It’s not going anywhere but downhill from there. The next thing you know you’ll be stooping to their level of nastiness.

For the record, I believe what I believe and that’s pretty much the end of the story. YET, I’m always interested in other viewpoints mainly because I like to know how people think and why they think that way. Plus, I rarely get upset about one not sharing my views because I realize my views are mines and not theirs! You believe what you believe and that’s your story. At the end of the day can we be civil? Can we work together? Can we be kind to one another? Different viewpoints, ideals, religions, cultures, shape the world and make it very interesting. You live here and I live here now let’s do lunch.

When I find myself dealing with a person who wants to argue instead of discuss, or a person who’s decided how they are going to deal with me because of my religion or my opposing views, I JUST DON’T DEAL. 😊

~Nikki

 

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Surrounded by Stones

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When I saw the above photograph, it immediately got my attention as I searched for a quote on peace. I looked at it and thought this is how we should operate in the midst of everything that is going on around us. I named each stone as I looked at the picture and said there I am also. Peace in the midst may not be consistent for many of us but, the simple truth that you have it at times lets me know it’s always available.

Self Injection of Truth Serum: The Antidote to Lies

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When I was dating, in and out of relationships, I discovered men lie in the worst ways. Men lie and I believed the lies because well, at first I didn’t have a clue. When you’re young and you have no coaching on what to expect in the dating world, the “games” and how to protect your heart, you’re just out there on your own without sound or solid advice from people you can trust. And you end up hurt, used, and abused. Heartbreaks keep on coming like a bottomless beverage. Until you’ve had enough. Until you wise up. You learn quickly (well, that can be subject to the individual because I didn’t!) but I learned that lies flow easily from the lips of deceitful men to get whatever they want. I learned charm is a spell. Literally. And dangerous in the skilful hands of a liar.
You also learn the FEEL of a lie, the TASTE of a lie, the TOUCH of a lie, the SOUND of a lie, and the LOOK of a lie. But what do many of us do, male and female? We pretend we don’t feel, taste, hear or see any of it. And you know what you’re now doing now??? Lying to yourself.

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If you want to end a brigade of lies brought to your doorstep by others like their delivering roses when they are really dumping manure at your feet, the first step is to admit to the hypocrisy. What!!!??? Yes. The reason others can constantly lie to you is because you lie to you. After some time in the dating world, you FEEL, SEE, HEAR, TASTE, KNOW a lie but you PRETEND you don’t. You talk yourself out of it and around it and you you let it slide. You solicit the counsel of friends and wise ones but if they tell you what you don’t want to hear, you override the truth and go with the lies and excuses you tell yourself. ADDRESS THE HYPOCRISY.

One you prep yourself with the alcohol swab of admitting to hypocrisy, then inject yourself with the TRUTH ABOUT YOU. Oh I know you thought this would be about stopping the lies you allow others to tell you but here is the TRUTH about TRUTH serum, it begins with you. That’s how you know it’s working. Tell yourself the easy truth and the hard cold gut wrenching truth about you, every time, every chance and it won’t be nearly as hard to accept the truth when you are being lied to.

Let me be clear. If you want honesty be honest with yourself even when it is not pretty, not convenient and not what you want to hear. It is what you need. Becoming honest with myself about myself help me to accept the truth about the lies presented to me. It no longer mattered what I wanted, what he looked like, how long we had been together, it was what it was. When you stop pretending with yourself, you’ll stop pretending with others.

~Nikki

“Self truth is the antidote to lies.”-Nicole Jackson

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Yielding to the Fruit of the Spirit

There’s a green light to being mean, nasty, doing evil and speaking ill in this world. We don’t have to ponder whether to snap back or plot revenge. We enjoy it in this world. It makes us feel good about ourselves and causes and powerful. It’s like drinking poison and saying ahhhh now that was refreshing! We disregard the harm of others and only think about what we did when the consequences, karma or the law catches up with us.
I’d like to throw flowers in the air tell you what the world needs now is love sweet love and that may be true but first the world needs a swift kick in the behind and a lesson on humanity. THEN we may place crowns of flowers on our heads and sway side to side or hold up a candles for a visual.
Instead taking the highway of hate one can learn by practicing… Key word practicing Yielding to the Fruit of the Spirit. Isn’t that a “Christian” principle? Um, I never knew Spirit to be associated with only the Christian religion. I’d think it applies to anyone who has a spirit. Anyways dot dot dot (…)
Yielding to love, kindness, peace, patience, forbearance, joy, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control can only help us all become better human beings. Yielding requires a slowing down to access on coming traffic to make a decision whether it’s clear for you to proceed or of you need to STOP and wait for an open space to keep going. Or you could just plow right into traffic, hurt others and yourself and receive a ticket. Yeah… That’s what we do when we don’t yield to the fruit of the spirit. We hurt others and ourselves and receive a big fat ticket from the UNIVERSE signed by Officer Karma. Slow down and have a good day… Hands you the ticket.
-Nikki

 

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On Your Mark

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Be ye also ready. All you need is that one connection to the right person. As a matter of fact pretend like you have it and be prepared. Perfect your craft. Have your ducks lined up in a row as my mom would say. Imagine what you would say or have your pitch together. You may not even need it. I’ve got one self help book under my belt. I have my first mini novel ready to move by the end of this month. I have already decided to make my first self help book a play and script it. I have what I call the blueprints for other books, plays, movies, short films. And I am working on a business plan for my non-profit. This is my in the meantime.”Stay ready.So you don’t have to get ready”. I have no idea what is going to take off first. 

The truth is I don’t know what I am doing but, I am doing something until I see my steps ordered. I am taking advice and watching other authors. I am reading about their journey for inspiration and clues. I realize writing  and poetry is just one part of who I am. Fashion is also in my blood so I still sketch. I still  want to design because it is my first love. I am learning to sew. The fashion designer in me will never die. Whatever pieces of the puzzle you have to who you are, work a little on putting them together everyday until you get the big picture. 

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