I know that you are grateful that you have a place of employment, but that does not mean you are happy or joyful or motivated going there daily. I have worked a job with great pay, but it was so mundane. I have also worked one that I loathe, with very low pay and it literally activated the illness I have in my body presently. Some jobs really are bad for your health! Well, what do you do about a job you don’t like? One that stresses you beyond the norm? You take action.
One thing you don’t do is let others make you feel guilty about not “loving” your job. The second thing to do is to determine if you are bored, if you have reached a ceiling, or if you literally hate the thought, sight, smell, etc of your place of employment. If you are bored, then maybe you can set goals or set your sights on a promotion. Also, ask about certifications pertaining to your position.
If you have reached a ceiling, gone as far as you can go in that position, then maybe search for positions in another department. Perhaps, asking about certifications on the job or going back to school may be an option. Some people switch careers.
If your job is causing you extreme anxiety and stress then you must get a hold on managing it better. This could be life-saving. In the meantime, search for a new job somewhere else. You can become burned out. It could be a job that is totally not a fit for you or your personality. Be honest. I had to be. It wasn’t just Mondays that got me down. It was every day and every hour. I was happier leaving than I was going!
Whatever the situation is, nothing can bring me you more joy than discovering or working on what it is you really want to do with your life. This could be your saving grace. After you clock out, after you take care of your family, carve out some time to search for what it is you want to do and how to do it. This is what is saving me. You can look forward to working on your REAL life calling and destiny in the meantime. You’ll love Mondays and everyday from here on out.
Yesterday, a guy asked me if I wanted to get married (not as in a proposal ha!) I said “I don’t know and I know that is strange coming from a woman,but maybe not. Most of the time I do but, today I am not sure.”
I remember when my answer to this question was a certainty. A resounding “Yes!” And then in my late 20’s to my 30’s I think it was more of saying yes to this question, trying to convince myself that I still did want to get married. I mean what woman wouldn’t want to? (You don’t have to answer that because I do know not every woman wants to be married) As I reflected on my answer last night and this morning I logged onto Facebook and began to scroll my timeline. Someone had posted the 8 a.m. service of my church so I clicked the play button.
He talked about remembering, visions, dreams, and revelation. I remembered the dream I had at the beginning of the year where I was attending my niece’s wedding (she is already married), and a very good friend was there whom I trust more than most. Well in this dream my niece had on a lavender robe (her favorite color is purple/lavender) but, everything involving the wedding was pink. A soft pink. The bridesmaid dresses were pink and I had one on. The flowers were a mixture of pinks. I held up some lingerie which was a gift to her and I said “What are you going to do with this?” And we both laughed and laughed. When I went out to the living area, it was if we were in a suite, my friend was there in a suit. He said “Someday, you are going to make a beautiful bride.” And then I woke up.
I researched the color pink down to the shades. I found that the color I was wearing and that mostly dominated the dream was symbolic of hope. I immediately got the message “Keep hope alive. Never let your hope of being married wither.” You keep hope alive by actively choosing faith. Hope and faith, like many other things are connected in the spiritual realm of this world and our lives. If you lose hope, faith can waver or dissipates over time. If you lose faith, hope wavers or dissipates over time. However you spin it, they belong together.
I accessed my feelings in relation to the question asked. How have you been feeling lately Nikki about relationships and dating? I have been feeling doubtful, frustrated, impatient. This is why I answered, “I don’t know.” My pastor reminded me that vision and dreams are connected and you needed to remember what God, (or your source-that’s me talking to you), has promised you. Also, God will give a revelation, instructions, on how to go about making the dream manifest. You just do as the instructions come or as the instructions say. This could be about anything. For me, at that moment is was about the marriage. It was about me remembering the many dreams I have had about love, relationships, and marriage. It was about connecting my vision of what love looks like and what love means to me, to dreams I’ve been given and following the instructions (like blocking a number of some crazy guy I met) or hearing the voice of the Spirit say “This guy still has feelings for his ex. Keep your heart to yourself.”….so you see, revelation must be followed. Do you want to get married? Yes. Yes I do.
Early this morning I had a dream I was in a place that was like a school filled with people in their 20’s and up (young adults, adults, seasoned adults). Some were students and some were instructors. However, all I did was follow my older sister to her class and when she went into her class I walked around, then I would go back to her class when she got out. In the dream this happened day in and day out, over and over.
But one day, as I was walking around the state of the art school/university, which had every class you could imagine for every profession, job, career, off beat profession, entrepreneurs, etc you could imagine, I saw a man who looked familiar and he said “Nicole, what do they have you doing in here?” As he brushed up against my arm there was a quick vision of him teaching me to sew as a child. His hand was on my hand at the sewing machine. Before I could answer his question he said “Tell them to send you to Sew with Joe” and he waved me good bye. As I was going up some glass and metal stairs I saw an aunt. She said “Hey Nikki. On my way to a meeting.” I decided to follow her and we went into a room with a glass floor and when I saw the rug beneath the long table I thought “This rug is off centered but, it would be perfect in the drama.” I immediately got an idea for some dramatic made for TV drama. I started to pull the rug to center it and then I said to myself “Oh, I have to go because my sister gets out of class soon. I wonder what time?” I looked up at the clock and it was 10 minutes to 4 P.M. and I got to her class just in time for it to dismiss at 4 P.M.
Then I woke up.
My interpretation: It’s a waste of time to follow the footsteps of others that are not on your path. Even if others think it’s the way. If it’s the way your siblings went, parents went, friend went. If it is not your dream/vision, if it was not giving to you by the Divine, you will be like a drone or robot, just going and coming. You see, my sister is in the medical field and so was mom and it is the path she wanted me to follow. It’s the path she thinks is the best path and better than any other path because it’s one she chose. She holds it in high esteem. Which is why it is important to support and nourish whatever your child wants to be or they will become a wanderer in many fields and things but, never touching what their heart desired. You put that fire out when you try to GUIDE them into what YOU want them to be. Some of you as adults, including me are still wandering or going back and forth in something we would never have chosen to be in all of these years. Instill values and morals in your children, not your dreams.
It’s not until you get bored or curious or decide to explore your true passions, dreams, gifts that you are run into people and situations that help you bloom. It’s not until you try something you always wanted to try does a spark of creativity and electricity flow through your body. When Joe, the angel (I believe that’s who he was) touched me and I remembered I was taught to sew before I came to earth, and that I can come back to learn again, I felt alive and awaken and astonished. When I walked into the business meeting I didn’t care about the business meeting, I was more concerned with the rug placement and creating a drama.
4 (4 PM in the dream) is the number of establishment and direction. What you do over and over in this realm, physically you will establish and leave here. What you do over and over mentally or play in your mind, fix in your mind-follow the leader, follow others, follow the path you don’t want to, you will establish in your mind this is the way when it’s not the way-a drone/a robot that has ESTABLISHED a way of thinking and drowned out the emotional sadness to a numbness. After all of the SIGNS to go into your dreams, gifts and talents you will go back to follow a path you never chose for yourself. You see, I went back to get my sister at 4pm in the dream as I was starting to rearrange the room. I stopped doing what I wanted to do, to do what I was “told” to do.
There are times in life when we will face some really difficult situations which can cause us to “worry” or to become “concerned” about the outcome. Anxiety is a perpetual worry and concern. It can come like a flood seemingly out of nowhere or it can come immediately when something foreseen or not begins to manifest right before our eyes. And many times it may never manifest or at least not to the full degree we allow ourselves to imagine. It is when our active imagination takes us out in the deep where we lose sight of the shore of hope and faith. We are no longer anchored to the shore. We are floating out on a sea of shaky thoughts. We become “see” sick by the things we imagine will happen.
I ran across this quote and I had this thought: “Oh, it’s like Kanye-ing thoughts which create anxiety.” Imagine anxiety with a mic and you run up on stage and say “Look, I’m not going to give the mic back. However, I would like to thank the Creator for all that I have. I am grateful for life. I am thankful for the breath I breathe. I am thankful for the clothes and shoes I have. I am happy I can see, walk, talk and taste the food I have. I am so very grateful for the lessons I am learning….” You know blah blah blah good stuff until Anxiety walks off the stage and has a seat.
In many cases it’s rude to interrupt but, it’s perfectly fine to interrupt negative thoughts and “what ifs” that create and build up negative emotions that send you into anxiety rap battles also know as anxiety attacks. I remember reading a book by Inyanla Vanzant that stated “If you are going to play the “what if” game, play the other side.” In other words, what about “what if” it doesn’t happen? Instead, use your imagination to create solutions and calm. Also, if you play the what if game, then ask yourself what can I do if that does happen. I know it’s not easy. I know from experience. However, it’s worth cutting off negative thoughts or anxiety and filling your mind with gratitude instead.
You have the courage and the strength to rise up again. Again means you have done it before and if you have done it before you can do it again. I know. it’s never been this devastating. I know, it’s never been this dark. I know it’s never been this hard. Still, you have it in you to rise once more and again if you have to. And when you rise, pray.
And when you rise up, TAKE courage. Sometimes you have to TAKE courage and do what needs to be done.
I pray and I meditate. In my meditation I received this and wanted to share with those who may be experiencing some alarming shifting in your life. I do write down what I receive most times. It can be instructions or dialogue or colors…I do have visions during meditation also. So….here we go.
Private devotion/meditation made public:
God/Spirit: God makes you grow. If you outgrow you have to be uprooted and planted elsewhere. We are not necessarily talking about a physical move as much as a spiritual transplant. One of your favorite scriptures you received the first time you read it is: Psalm 1:3
(Note to you: I use to read this scripture as a child and say I want to be a tree planted by the waters before I knew what that meant. I found it peaceful.)
3 And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper. Nicole, you feel unstable because you are being transferred. You are ready to be planted by the rivers of water. Uprooting is unsettling but, know you are in my hands. Seed has been planted, water has been given, I gave the increase and now you have to move. It’s what you always wanted. Fear not. You’re welcome.
Me: Wait. I wasn’t there already? I wasn’t already planted by the rivers of water?
God/Spirit: You were there and are there. This is awareness of the process. You see the end but you live the process in this realm…and as you grow you will see more of the “before you can ask, think of it, I will answer.”
I live in a city where senseless and violent crimes take place daily. I live in a city where educational programs are often squandered and where politics lean towards the influence of the wealthy. This produces fear, anger, and flight. This produces arguments and lethargy.
Now factor in raising children, health problems, unemployment, starving artists, underpaid teachers and overpaid leaders, aging parents, debts, low paying jobs, past catching up, uncertainty about the future, marriage, divorce, single life and dating, finances, careers, family matters… You’ve got a whirlwind of fear dancing about your mind, body, and spirit. Torture. Did I say whirlwind? I meant a category 5 tornado.
Where do you stand? (Stand Nikki? I’m laying down and taking a nap. I’m drinking. I’m chain smoking. I’m overeating. I’m not eating. I’m confrontational. I’m not doing anything. I’m not sleeping.) Let me rephrase, “How do you stand?” I heard an intelligent being say, by the name of Nicole Jackson, “Rising fear is met with a rising active faith.” I love to be the bearer of good news. So, in other words “You have to meet fear with action! A faith that DOES SOMETHING. FAITH IS AN ACTION WORD.”
All of the knowledge/wisdom you’ve absorbed from the Creator, Shamans, Priests, Gurus, Ancestors, Life, etc. It’s time to use it. Prayer and meditation is a two way conversation between you and the universe (known to many buy God, Creator, Divine, etc.) Let prayer and meditation pour into you instructions you need “for such a time as this.” Perhaps this is new to you. You maybe a young adult. Listen, wisdom is all around you. It’s in your parents, grandparents, mentor, your beliefs, a book, mistakes, this blog. It’ll come to you Young Jedi.
Have no fear. Instead, activate your rising faith.
Where there is smoke, there is fire.
Where there is fear, there is a lack of confidence. You’ve got the gift or gifts but, what’s holding you back? Is it the thought that you can’t do it? Maybe you sorta kinda feel that you can but, you just don’t know.
Confidence is more than saying I can do it. Confidence is a strong conviction that you CAN do it. It has to take ROOT in your core being. But how? For those of us that lack self confidence. I’m writing this via the spirit, on the fly, given to me as I type. So, here we go in no order or logic to my knowledge:
Some of us never had confidence so to speak (I believe you are born with it but, many times it needs to be nurtured as a child. Hence, confidence building. Then there are others that just have it). If you were a child brought up in an environment that tore your confidence down daily, you may not have been fortunate enough to have had the mental fortitude to survive that. On the other hand, some of you in that environment held on to that voice on the inside telling you “you can do it” but, you’re still lacking the confidence. Illnesses, accidents, tragedies, huge setbacks, have a way of merely destroying our confidence. If you allow it and let’s be honest, some of us have allowed it. No guilt.
Confidence comes from knowing that you’re already equip with some knowledge of how to manifest your gift and knowing that whatever you don’t know will come to you via research, another person that has already paved the way, or stumbling upon a method through trial and error. Call it divine intervention or instructions. “Something” told me to…I just so happen to be at…
Confidence is strengthened by trial and error. You gain the “how to” through the “don’t do.”-Nicole Jackson. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Mistakes are teachers. Thank the teacher. Accept the answer and move forward.
Confidence is planted by action. You’ve got confidence. You’ve been SAYING IT, THINKING IT but have you been DOING IT? IMAGINE a seed 🌱 in your hand. And you look at it and say “I can plant it. I will plant it. I am planting it.” You lay down and you “think about planting it. See yourself planting it” but you’re still holding the seed in your hand! When you ACTUALLY take ACTION is when the seed will get planted. The more you do your gift, the more confidence grows and deepens its ROOT in your soul. In your psyche. Doing your gift is the watering, sunlight, weeding.
You want your confidence to take root? Don’t mind the weather. Don’t mind the naysayers and the negative thoughts that come to you discourage you. If you do, you’ll be digging up the confidence seed. Bonus: Confidence also can be planted in any season.
This is all the Holy Spirit gave me and I have shared it with you!
Muhammad Ali was a champion in many ways but, what made him a champion in those ways was his ability to champion his thoughts.
As I reflect on my life I look at the ways I use self defeating thoughts verses champion thoughts. Many of us have been preprogrammed with thoughts or conditioned to think certain thoughts through experiences. Either good or negative, we think. If I’m to be honest, my thought process didn’t begin to change until I was 30 (however, I woke up so to speak at 26) and here we have it 11 years later, finally taking root and blooming.
Champion thoughts requires hard, grueling, relentless and challenging work. Long hours at the spiritual gym within and a spiritual diet fit for a champion. You can’t eat (listen to, digest) anything that’s put on your plate. You will suffer some defeats, barely make rounds, but you will begin to win more than you lose when you learn to never change your champion mentality. But, you need only to adjust your approach, strategy, study your opposition and hit the spiritual gym more. Reflect.
A champion doesn’t become a champion by building the body only. Many men have lost relying on brute force alone. Many have lost the fight in this life with brute force alone. Champion thoughts help you get through the toughest times in your life. I look at Muhammad Ali and even though his body was attacked by Parkinson’s and it silenced him physically, HE WAS STILL SEEN AS THE CHAMP. Champion thoughts have no need be verbalized all the time. Champion thoughts don’t care about your pain, wins, losses or draw. Champion have a need to be lived. May we live out our lives from here on out with champion thoughts. May we not see the world as we have in our twenties but, as the champions we are. Are you not still standing? Raise your arms up high, fist to the sky, Champion.
IN RELATION TO YOUR DREAMS, WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU’RE CRAZY, THEY ARE SAYING YOUR DREAMS ARE BEYOND THEIR SCOPE OF POSSIBILITY, REALITY AND IMAGINATION. -NICOLE JACKSON
Yesterday, I talked to a publisher for one of my clients. He told me how it took him 3 years to leave HIS JOB as a top guy with 700 employees under him. He said people kept telling him MAN YOU’RE CRAZY. Then he said plus I was mid age. Then I just couldn’t fight it anymore and here I am. Sometimes, I pinch myself and can’t believe I’m living my dream.
Me: Usually when they say YOU’RE CRAZY, in relation to your dreams, it’s a sure thing you’re on the right path.
Him: I can see that!
Me: Yeah, just think of all the people with a success story, even in the Bible, (he’s Christian), who were told THAT’S CRAZY and things worked out.
Him: Right! It’s been 9 years. An unbelievable 9 years.
Me: YOU’RE CRAZY means it’s outside their scope of reality, possibility & imagination. That’s all.
Him: WOW. Are you in ministry?
Me: Something like that.