Afraid to Succeed

Me in Paris, France

Monday, I woke up and made a choice to have a productive and successful day. However, there was this nagging feeling I needed to address. It was the feeling of fear of success. I can feel that with the actions I am taking in my life now, there will be huge successes. And for some reason, that makes me afraid. Why?

It’s not because I am afraid of the responsibility of success which is what I saw in my research of “fear of success”. It is because if I do become successful, I am afraid I will not have the ability to maintain it. What if it does good and then it starts not to do well? I am afraid that the money I make will somehow disappear because of “life”. You know expenses. I don’t know what I am doing. I am not confident in my steps. This makes me freeze up and not want to do anything at all.

I searched some affirmations for fear of success. I also added my own. I decided to meditate using affirmations.

  • I step into the into the success of accomplishing my dreams.
  • I am not afraid to succeed.
  • Succeeding is my birthright.
  • To succeed is to be the best version of myself.
  • Fear is an indicator that I am headed in the right direction
  • I am filled with endless solutions for my business, goal, and dreams
  • I am filled with endless ideas
  • There are no limits on my ideas
  • I am capable of solving any issues that may arise
  • There are no limits to my creativity. I am always expanding.
  • I am always evolving my business when necessary to keep up with the current times.
  • I am excited to see the success from my actions
  • I am very capable of securing my future from my success
  • Time is precious and a gift. I am using my time wisely to create the life I want to live
  • I inhale courage…I exhale fear

I pray this helps someone today.

Love, Nikki

How I Feel About Turning 42. It’s my Birthday!

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When I think of the number 42 I think of Jackie Robinson. Iconic. Breaking barriers. Bold. Brave. Outspoken. Skilled. Hard-working. And last but not least…legendary. 42 is a good number. It’s the number of a legend. In the spiritual realm it’s about pursuing your passions and life purpose, doing the things you love and putting your heart and soul in them as angels readily assist. I want to make it legendary. And in the words of Jackie Robinson “A life is not important except in the impact it has on others.” You see, most of all I want it to impact the lives of others in the most positive, inspiring, and mind shifting way. It is going to require discipline, bravery, skills, dedicated hard work, the breaking of barriers, boldness, and to be outspoken when necessary. My # last year was #40and1, but now it shall be #42Legendary. Today is my birthday! Hello 42!

~Nikki

T.G.I.M!

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I know that you are grateful that you have a place of employment, but that does not mean you are happy or joyful or motivated going there daily. I have worked a job with great pay, but it was so mundane. I have also worked one that I loathe, with very low pay and it literally activated the illness I have in my body presently. Some jobs really are bad for your health! Well, what do you do about a job you don’t like? One that stresses you beyond the norm? You take action.

One thing you don’t do is let others make you feel guilty about not “loving” your job. The second thing to do is to determine if you are bored, if you have reached a ceiling, or if you literally hate the thought, sight, smell, etc of your place of employment. If you are bored, then maybe you can set goals or set your sights on a promotion. Also, ask about certifications pertaining to your position.

If you have reached a ceiling, gone as far as you can go in that position, then maybe search for positions in another department. Perhaps, asking about certifications on the job or going back to school may be an option. Some people switch careers.

If your job is causing you extreme anxiety and stress then you must get a hold on managing it better. This could be life-saving. In the meantime, search for a new job somewhere else. You can become burned out. It could be a job that is totally not a fit for you or your personality. Be honest. I had to be. It wasn’t just Mondays that got me down. It was every day and every hour. I was happier leaving than I was going!

Whatever the situation is, nothing can bring me you more joy than discovering or working on what it is you really want to do with your life. This could be your saving grace. After you clock out, after you take care of your family, carve out some time to search for what it is you want to do and how to do it. This is what is saving me. You can look forward to working on your REAL life calling and destiny in the meantime. You’ll love Mondays and everyday from here on out.

~Nikki