From the book: Inner Engineering A Yogi’s Guide to Joy by Sadhguru
Winter slows us down. Great. We need it. For many of us cooler or colder temps, heavy snow, rigid temperatures, a lull in tourists, all change the way we do things for a season. We can learn from each season and borrow from each one and apply the lessons to our own lives throughout the year. Basically, there is a time and season for everything.
Winter blessings bring the holidays of Christmas, New Year’s Eve and Day, and Valentine’s Day. If it’s too commercial for you, then make it less commercial. (yes I wish they would stop with the advertising in stores as soon as one holiday pass they are already putting up items for the next holiday. Seems like they could learn a lesson from winter. Chill.) I like the energy it brings. It is a cozy season. People seem to be less in a rush, more cheerful, more polite, lighthearted, and loving. Easy going. I like the gathering of family and friends during this time. It’s slowed down and no one is in a rush to get back in the cold weather to leave. They linger just a little longer. Winter brings about the blessing of quietness. Nature has a quietness and a stillness. In the midst winter birds such as cardinals, jays, and chickadees are singing or within our view. They love my tiny backyard.
Another thing about the stillness of winter is it’s very meditative. It is very calm. You can sit and stare out the window. Meditation. You have know idea what you were thinking or looking at. All is still until a squirrel scurries along or a bird rests on the fence. It’s reflective. You think about the year that is passing and the year to come. You begin to make preparation or get organized….well at least mentally.
As a person that has a few illnesses that makes cooler weather difficult and harsh on the body, I made a conscious decision not to let my illness ruin this season. It’s a conscious choice you have to make on your own. Winter is just being winter. It’s my body that is the problem. And even with that, I prepare not only physically as much as I can, but also mentally as much as I can.
PROBLEM SOLVING 101(Pt 1): Identify. Recognize the problem so that it can be solved. A problem cannot be solved if u don’t know what it is. Get by yourself, close your eyes if need be, and ask “What is the problem?” You will be heard and you will be answered. Now, whether you accept what you hear, feel or see is up to you. Many times the problem was me! Sometimes the problem was someone else and it I was told not to worry about it. Sometimes the problem was my response or my actions.
PROBLEM SOLVING 101 (Pt 2): If there is a problem, there is a solution. Sometimes the solution may be your response. Sometimes the solution may be a change in your behavior or how you live. Let (allow) this Mind, the same mind Jesus had on this earth to be in you. Christ was not Jesus’ last name. It was a title. Jesus the Anointed per Greek translation. The Bible says we have the Christ mind. Christ meaning “anointed.” Therefore, we have an anointed mind. And anointed mind has access to information from God and the Holy Spirit. It has a connection to angels.
When a problem creates stress and chaos, it is an indicator that you have separated yourself from the Creator. (Yes it is okay to initially feel all of the emotions you feel when a problem manifests whether you created it or not. After you settle down, just connect to your anointed mind). Whatever problem you “think” you have is saying “Some where I made a choice without God or without peace or without love or without consulting my higher self” or I am responding in a manner that is not bringing me peace. This is separation.When Jesus says “Take this cup from me,” but turns around and says “Your will be done.” I am human, I do feel, I am afraid…okay…let me use my anointed mind and change my response…”Your will be done.” The solution is to connect to the mind of God by using your “Christ” mind.
You know your “problem” because u asked. Now, know you know your solution-use your anointed mind to solve this “illusion” called a problem.
PROBLEM SOLVING 101 (pt3): The reason I say problems are illusions is because it can be resolved. I want to be clear, when it comes to sickness and diseases you can be healed. It can be resolved. But, what if it cannot? You’ve known someone to die of a disease or injury. I have. I pondered that. Until, I was diagnosed and things begin to happen to me. Well, I said why can’t I resolve this problem? Perhaps, as I wait on my healing the solution is my response. Do what I can in the natural, adhere to the doctors orders, unless the Spirit tells me other wise, and try to live each day with a positive outlook. It is already solved. We seem to claim victory, but even victory comes in many forms. You can’t have a problem without a solution if you connect to the mind of Christ, connect to the Creator and ask “What should I do?” and then do it. How do you know you’ve done the right thing? Peace will appear. You will feel light. Miracles happen. Things get better. You get the picture.
Last year instructions for my New Year were laid out in one big dreaming session. However, this year it seems to be coming in quietly, steadily, and unfolding. I am use to God dealing with me through many methods so I am comfortable and I think I needed it to be slow this time. I honestly can appreciate this method. I am a bit worn out from 2016 and the Excavating of My Authentic Self. I suppose when the word Liberation was dropped into my spirit, it was on time because after you excavate something it has to be freed from that which has preserved it. It needs to be a gentle process. It is fragile, yet precious and you want to keep it intact.
So I wanted to share the book that I used to help me grasp my authentic self in 2016 and the first book of instructions in my Liberation Journey 2017.
I actually purchased these two books towards the end of 2015 with no idea I would be using them in a journey. I was given the dream in 2015 on New Year’s Eve about Becoming my Authentic Self and well I had the book right in my possession to assist me. I will say it was a great help along with the Word of God (for me), messages, dreams and life experiences that seem to coordinate like a perfectly crafted course by the Creator. I thought I would use the other book last year, but I didn’t get too far into it. I think this is the book that will start off my liberation. I need to be liberated in my finances. It has been crunch time for almost three years since my illness. I have drained savings and feel the strain on my family. Yet, time is approaching where all of that is about to be over and certainly this is one area I will be liberated in. It would only seem fitting to take a totally new approach to finances and also there has been a mention of stock courses. You see, there is always a way to rebound and recover abundantly!
I don’t know what is next in this liberation course the Creator has designed for me or we have designed together at some points I am sure. I certainly would like for my lack of a love life to be liberated! (lol).
I NEEDED TO BE BORN AGAIN (AND IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH BAPTIZING).
I needed to be born again as the girl I was before so much information was downloaded into my being by life, relationships, parents, teachers, preachers, trauma, drama and experiences. True, much of that “made” me who I am today, but I also loss some of the good parts of me. To be honest, some of the very good parts of me. Some of those things have held me back, kept me in bad relationships, made me “bitter” for a time, made me mean, judgemental, and worst of all some of those things made me silent and stifled my creativity. Really, my creativity dwindled down to zilch. And guess what…CREATIVITY is WHO I AM. (excavated that too).
Close my eyes and take several dips in the waters that can wash away the programming of the world…as many dips as I need. Coming up from those dips with something washed away and with the power and conviction not to be deterred or reformed. I was born a rebel. I had to learn, however, my rebellion was not for “bad” but for “good.” I never wanted to conform to much of anything, but I did by force and choice. I rebelled in other ways.
Here is what was reborn or reinforced (so far):
I am a rebel. -Be the rebel I created you to be and use it for good. If “they” don’t like it don’t take it personal. They are not your people, but they are still my people. Be a rebel with a cause.
I am creative. -I created you creative. Write, draw, paint, design and go for it. Don’t censor it to make others happy. Censor it if you feel it offends me (God) and just know people will tell you that it offended me but really it offended them), but IF you and I have talked about it…keep creating. Sometimes the truth offends and makes others uncomfortable. And sometimes, they simply can’t relate.
I love the sky and the signs in it. -Be interested in the signs and wonders in the sky. Who else creates those “signs” every month and there are seasons to those signs. You know what is and what is not true. There are some anointed in these areas and there are many taught to “taboo” what they don’t know anything about. Don’t worry about it. You’ve been studying the sky since you were a child. Lay down in the grass and dream and talk to me like you use to. Come out to the night sky. Read all you want about zodiac signs, stars, moons, and planets. I don’t have a problem with you doing that. I know you don’t trust horoscopes, but you trust ME. Whatever you feel enhances your experience here…just depend on me and the Holy Spirit for discernment.
I am a free spirit. -I created you a free spirit. Embrace it. You don’t like being confined by rules, theologies, denominations, culture or walls. BUT YOU DO LOVE ORDER. Use wisdom and my guidance of when to sit and when to fly. Stop pushing down what you don’t agree with. Remain respectful. It’s not that you don’t like being told what to do, as they said, you don’t like the suffocating feeling of being “untrue to yourself.”
I like time to myself but I like friends. -Play by yourself until friends show up. You use to do that without any problem.
I trust myself. -Trust yourself again and add what you have learned. Easy.
I am strong. -You were born strong, courageous, and resilient. You all were.
I feel. -Be emotional. Be sensitive. Be proud of it! You are strong enough to FEEL and not pretend you don’t feel. Be honest about your feelings and govern yourself accordingly to move on.
I probably need a few more dips…
I LIKE BEGINNING AND ENDING MY DAY WITH A LIKE SOUL. I LIKE SPENDING MY PRECIOUS TIME WITH LIKE SOULS.
“Time is money. It is your currency on this earth. Where you spend it, how you spend it, and who you spend it with is your choice and consequence. There are no refunds.” -Nicole Jackson
You don’t realize how precious your time is until you are in the presence of others that are nothing like you. You do, however, recognize how miserable you are. True, you may not can always control the times you are around or encounter those people, but oh what joy for the times you can! There is nothing like being comfortable at a party, at a dinner, at a get together. I don’t like a lot of bickering and arguing. I had enough of that growing up. I don’t want to spend my time defending myself, explaining myself or being ignored. I like friendly people. I like kind people. I like joyful people. I like helpful people. I like honest people. I like funny people. I don’t want to sit around and talk about other people. Or whispering about another “friend or associate” in a room. I don’t really want to talk about someone who thinks we are all associates, family, or friends. I don’t care about their hair, makeup or attire.
When I was a child, I spent time with friends. When I was a teenager, I spent time with friends. When I was a young adult, I spent time with friends. The people I hung around were not mean or low down. They were not backstabbers, liars, or cheaters. They were not mean girls or rude. We could hash out any differences and move on. I don’t know what happened to those days or those kind of people, but I do know they are still alive and well. We told each other when we were wrong and we would help mend each other. Those are my kind of relationships.
When it comes to spending my life with someone, I prefer someone with a like soul. Someone similar in core beliefs and someone who can allow me the freedom to be myself. I don’t want to wake up miserable and come home to miserable. I will not and I do not believe God would set me up in that environment. God knows my creativity, my heart, my soul could not thrive in that type of environment. I am a delicate soul, yes. I am also strong, but my dynamics are complex for many.
I HAVE FOUND THE POWER BEHIND MY VOICE AGAIN.
I’d lost the power behind my voice. I would say something and when someone would challenge what I said, I would try to explain. If someone would insult my intelligence I would just ignore it. When in reality I wanted to assert myself or opinion. They made me feel as if my thoughts, my opinions, my feelings were wrong and theirs were right. They were not trying to get an UNDERSTANDING of Nicole, they were trying to get a session to berate me. They were trying to have a debate about what I THOUGHT, I FELT, OR I BELIEVE. Some wanted to tell me what I should feel and think when I had already told them what I thought and felt. They wanted to argue for the sake of arguing and not seek to understand. Many times, they wanted me to THINK as they THINK. Feel what they feel.
Let me tell you about Nicole. I don’t care what you think. I don’t care what you feel about politics, the Bible, gay people, cakes, pies, sports, natural hair, permed hair, tutus, etc. I don’t care enough to argue with you about it, to try and change you, to insult you. I have an understanding that you and I are two different people. We all are individuals with similarities and differences based on how we were raised, religions, race, experiences, and environments. I seek to understand your view and perspective. I don’t seek to destroy your theory, crush your heart, and tear your views a part. I get no joy or satisfaction out of being right or making you look stupid. I don’t feel empowered when I use a plethora of verbal assaults and curse words. I don’t seek to demean you, I seek to learn more about you.
The POWER in my voice to say “Look, if you want to discuss why I think the way I think, feel the way I feel, view the way I view, believe what I believe that is what we can do. If you are trying to understand me, that is awesome. I don’t need you to change me. I don’t mind being enlightened and even that is a choice of consciousness and you cannot beat it into me by belittling my religion/ideas/beliefs. You cannot change my preferences by calling me dumb or saying that’s stupid or calling me out of my name.”
The POWER TO BE QUIET is an option. The ability to discern when a person wants to argue and not discuss is sharpened. If I discover, “Oh, this is an argument to show me how stupid that sounds or how I should think like them or how I don’t make sense because they can’t comprehend it…” to say “Hey, let’s talk about something else because I am not going to change my thoughts or feelings” is POWER behind your voice. I don’t have to explain a damn thing about me. I don’t even want you to explain a damn thing about you that I don’t “get.” I’m not here to “get” everything about everybody or you. I am here to understand and when I don’t that is okay. When I don’t agree, that is okay. When I ask, trust me it will be to better understand you as a person and not to change your mind. It will be to exchange views and not to exchange profanity, put downs, rolled eyes, insults, conversion, etc.