Loosen me up. I am packed in tight

My roots are intertwined around each other

I can’t take flight. I can’t push towards the light

I can’t think. I can’t feel. But I think, think, think and I feel all the feelings

Spilling out. Pushing down. Moving around. My insides are peeling

I can’t believe what I am facing

I can’t believe what I am tracing

While my siblings are spacing

The answers I am chasing

If God doesn’t repot me I just might break

I just might root rot on this plate

My heart and mind want to escape. I’d like to pretend like it’s not happening, too

I’d like to say, what should we do?

I’d like to shrug my shoulders and bury my head in the sand

I’d like to laugh it off and live in a fairytale land

But someone has to be the bad girl not the bad guy

Someone has to tell the truths and not hide lies

I just wish it wasn’t me

Oh, how I want to be free

Could this not be my life right now

If it’s fair I just don’t see how

You run to get away and just when you are about to breathe

That narcissist is full blown demon and now I heave

If it’s fair I just don’t see how

I can’t f——g believe this is my life right now

By Nikki (Nicole Jackson)