Sunday Morning Coffee Musing: Talking to Your Higher Self

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Yesterday, I waited to pick my daughter up from taking her SATs (yes my one and only is a Senior!). Well, I got there and realized after looking at the email that she would be coming out an hour, maybe an hour and a half later than she told me. It was a beautiful fall day yesterday and as I sat on the campus of an amazing private school, I opened up my meditation app (after playing word games and surfing the web lol). I recently started back meditating last week. I found an app I first started with and my has it really developed! I chose a guided meditation which was not even an option years ago.

I chose the guided meditation of 11 minutes, “Connecting To Your Higher Self.” The invitation to connect with my Higher Self is exactly what I needed. I think maybe I have neglected my Higher Self  or just put it on the back burner. Maybe, even muting her. You know, the Higher Self means many things to many people. It could mean a higher power, the Holy Spirit, or it could mean your spirit. For me, it means my spirit. You know, I believe our spirits do know some things! I believe when we appeal to our higher selves, it’s the self that says “No, don’t do that.” or “Yes, do that!” It’s the pull within us and the shrinkage within us and I believe it’s who God or Holy Spirit and spirits communicate with. I mean, our body’s are vehicles that house our own spirits.

Well, in this guided mediation before the yogi ever got to listening to what Higher Self is saying via this session, mines was shouting with a whisper, “This way! This way!” It was like a soft lit path and then as things were in a distance you could envision a ball of soft light. “I will guide you. I will show you which way to go.” I can tell you that I knew exactly what Higher Self was talking about. I have been feeling a bit lost and uncertain about the things I love to do. The artsy, writer, crochet-er, learning to sew disabled due to Rheumatoid Disease and other issues and “at my age” has been uncertain of not what to do with what I have but HOW to do and WHERE to go and WHEN. Which way? What process? Whenever I am doing what I love or enjoy, my spirit, Higher Self is in harmony. Whenever I am doing things or when I was working at my jobs, my Higher Self, my spirit was in turmoil. If I were headed towards a bad relationship, or in one, even friendship, my spirit was in knots or heavy. It needed the Holy Spirit, a good friend, a leader, a mentor, a book, a series of sermons, dreams and visions to reach it. I also think this spirit vibrates on higher frequencies when you are in tune with the Universe or God’s Plans or Your Purpose than when you are out of synch or off path.

I was delighted to recognize my Higher Self, the Intuitive One, on yesterday.

~Nikki (43, The It Is Well Within Me Tour)

Insight Timer is the App I use and the Guided Meditation was “Connecting To Your Higher Self.”

Dream: 7/25 Confirmed Path of Creativity

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Early this morning I had a dream I was in a place that was like a school filled with people in their 20’s and up (young adults, adults, seasoned adults). Some were students and some were instructors. However, all I did was follow my older sister to her class and when she went into her class I walked around, then I would go back to her class when she got out. In the dream this happened day in and day out, over and over.

But one day, as I was walking around the state of the art school/university, which had every class you could imagine for every profession, job, career, off beat profession, entrepreneurs, etc you could imagine, I saw a man who looked familiar and he said “Nicole, what do they have you doing in here?” As he brushed up against my arm there was a quick vision of him teaching me to sew as a child. His hand was on my hand at the sewing machine. Before I could answer his question he said “Tell them to send you to Sew with Joe” and he waved me good bye. As I was going up some glass and metal stairs I saw an aunt. She said “Hey Nikki. On my way to a meeting.” I decided to follow her and we went into a room with a glass floor and when I saw the rug beneath the long table I thought “This rug is off centered but, it would be perfect in the drama.” I immediately got an idea for some dramatic made for TV drama. I started to pull the rug to center it and then I said to myself “Oh, I have to go because my sister gets out of class soon. I wonder what time?” I looked up at the clock and it was 10 minutes to 4 P.M. and I got to her class just in time for it to dismiss at 4 P.M.

Then I woke up.

My interpretation: It’s a waste of time to follow the footsteps of others that are not on your path. Even if others think it’s the way. If it’s the way your siblings went, parents went, friend went. If it is not your dream/vision, if it was not giving to you by the Divine, you will be like a drone or robot, just going and coming. You see, my sister is in the medical field and so was mom and it is the path she wanted me to follow. It’s the path she thinks is the best path and better than any other path because it’s one she chose. She holds it in high esteem. Which is why it is important to support and nourish whatever your child wants to be or they will become a wanderer in many fields and things but, never touching what their heart desired. You put that fire out when you try to GUIDE them into what YOU want them to be. Some of you as adults, including me are still wandering or going back and forth in something we would never have chosen to be in all of these years. Instill values and morals in your children, not your dreams.

It’s not until you get bored or curious or decide to explore your true passions, dreams, gifts that you are run into people and situations that help you bloom. It’s not until you try something you always wanted to try does a spark of creativity and electricity flow through your body. When Joe, the angel (I believe that’s who he was) touched me and I remembered I was taught to sew before I came to earth, and that I can come back to learn again, I felt alive and awaken and astonished. When I walked into the business meeting I didn’t care about the business meeting, I was more concerned with the rug placement and creating a drama.

4  (4 PM in the dream) is the number of establishment and direction. What you do over and over in this realm, physically you will establish and leave here. What you do over and over mentally or play in your mind, fix in your mind-follow the leader, follow others, follow the path you don’t want to, you will establish in your mind this is the way when it’s not the way-a drone/a robot that has ESTABLISHED a way of thinking and drowned out the emotional sadness to a numbness.  After all of the SIGNS to go into your dreams, gifts and talents you will go back to follow a path you never chose for yourself. You see, I went back to get my sister at 4pm in the dream as I was starting to rearrange the room. I stopped doing what I wanted to do, to do what I was “told” to do.

~Nikki