My birthday month is approaching. What if I have no plans for my birthday? Except plans that involve only me? What if I don’t want to go out with others? What if i don’t want gifts? What if I just want time alone? Explore alone? Maybe, what I am saying is what if I don’t do what is expected? I do celebrate the entire month. But what if I celebrate the entire month in a different way? What if I shut down shop? Shop is me. What would you like for your birthday? Nothing. You don’t want to go anywhere? No. You don’t want to do anything? No. At all? I do. I just don’t want a crowd or a gathering. This entire month? I am not saying that. I am just saying, I don’t want to announce it. I don’t want to make it loud or a big deal. And yes, I am still a big deal.
I want to be quietly a big deal the entire month in my own way, on my own terms, and mostly by myself. Let me not do so much, too much, and still take up space. Let me go from maximum to muted maximum. I usually have birthday themes and colors. But with life’s chaos, I don’t have any of that. I have been too exhausted, too tapped out, too out of sorts. Well, let me say this, I do have a theme. I do have colors. My colors are any colors in my closet I choose. My theme: “Shhh.Quiet Please. It’s My Birthday Month.”
~Nikki
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