Saturday Morning Musing:
I don’t know about you but, when I was younger, I was so in love with love. I had no reservations about love and I am not talking about the fairy tale version. I am saying before the destructive behavior of others and some poor choices (you live and you learn! many times wisdom comes by experiences…good and bad), love was not tainted. It was not some murky substance but pure because of the Divine (and well really love still is pure but, people are not always).
Well, I still get this “lovey dovey” feeling if you will that I use to love having but, I have found myself being UNCOMFORTABLE with it over the years. It can be quite frightening sometimes. So this morning I was sipping my coffee and looking out the window when I said “Ugh, God, this lovey dovey mushy gushy feeling! Why me Lord?! Why do I get this feeling!!” ( I was very dramatic #OscarNominated). And there was no mistaken when I heard the voice of God or Morgan Freeman playing God say: “Don’t worry about getting that lovey dovey feeling. It means you still have HOPE in that type of LOVE. It means you still have “that” type of LOVE in your HEART. It means all of that pain hasn’t killed “that” type of LOVE. I put that LOVE in you. Now, when you resist that lovey dovey feeling it is you who will kill it. Only you can kill it. No one else and nothing else. It is the choice you make to bury it. Worry when you don’t feel it. When you are not moved by couples and wedding photos and wonderful marriages.”
I guess God told me! I sipped my coffee and changed my tone: “Oh my Dear Divine, I sure do thank you for this lovey dovey feeling! I am keeping HOPE ALIVE!” I am sure God smiled at me as I would smile at my silly child and shake my head. #DO OVER
If I asked you what was more important than your children you would say nothing! If I asked you who or what comes before your children you would say no one and nothing! If I asked you if you spent time with your children you would say of course I do. I take them to the park, I take them to go get ice cream, I take them to the movies, I take them to their games and we have game night. I would say awesome but, are you there in body and in mind or are you there in body and half-“donkey” mentally? In other words are you engaging in every moment and soaking up every conversation or quietness (when they are tweens and teens)? Are you looking at their expressions? Gestures? Are you looking at the screen? Are you watching the game? Or are you looking at your phone or social media? Are you texting? Are you playing a game? Are you talking business or pleasure? Are you talking to your spouse or significant other?
If you can’t fathom the idea of leaving your phone in the car or turning it off during game night or while you’re at the movies in fear you may miss a call or text or post…you have a serious problem. A serious and sad addiction to a device. A sick relationship with your phone.
Here is a bright idea. Why don’t you call everyone you think may call or text you and tell them you will be with your children for about two hours and you are turning the phone off for uninterrupted time to give your children some UNDIVIDED ATTENTION. Well, Nikki, I have aging parents or a very important business matter. Well…I strongly suggest you don’t go on any social media or set your phone to quiet time and only allow your business contact or parents to interrupt. Tell the person on the other end I got one minute then I will have to call you back because I am having quality time with my child and I can’t possible talk to you/watch them at the same time effectively. It bugs the hell (heck for the offended) out of me when children just want your focus, conversations, time and all eyes on them and you can’t because you are oblivious to them because you are so connected to your phone. Time with your children FIRST …girlfriends, boyfriends, friends, phone games, social media later. They would have not constantly ask you “Did you hear me?” or “Did you see that?” if you were PRESENT in MIND and BODY.
On December 31st I had a dream in which I was shown I had access to all sorts of jewels. It was a hidden box of amazing pieces and stones. My first thoughts upon waking up were “Hidden Jewels”. I knew then “God, the Divine Creator of the Universe” was telling me that on the inside of me are jewels I didn’t know I had access to (or maybe forgotten because you know I believe I have been here before and perhaps they were collected in lifetimes…yeah I know I love me too). I went to the mailbox in the dream to get some mail and the person in the dream (a good friend of mines was dressed as the mailman) said “There is a box hidden in this box” and that is when I “opened” the hidden box and there were these amazingly unique jewels of all kinds and sizes. Some were loose pieces of gems and stones. Many others were fashioned into necklaces, earrings, and bracelets. It seemed as if I could never get to the bottom of this large long safe deposit box. It was long and deep.
So, I wanted to answer two questions for you. 1. How do I know if I have hidden jewels if no one tells me or I don’t have a dream or epiphany? 2. How do I access the hidden jewels?
- I am telling you NOW that you have hidden jewels on the inside of you. So now you know! (Pass it on)
- Open up. You access the hidden jewels by opening up to the possibilities and opportunities that come your way. You access the hidden jewels in meditation and prayer. You access the hidden jewels by staying connected to your Source and yourself (your heart). It’s that simple!!! It will come to you…sort of like a dream 🙂
So go forth, from here on out and “Be Jeweled”. Adorn yourself in your gifts and talents. It’s not showing off. Who puts on their jewelry and says “Oh…I hope no one notices my favorite necklace.” They are your gifts. Go forth and “Be Jeweled” with an open heart and mind as the keys to accessing all of your other hidden gifts and talents.
In comparing our lives to a river, I don’t believe it’s a straight narrow river. I believe it is a river that is narrow at some points and wide at other points. I also believe there are many many bends in the river of life. Some very deep ones. So deep you think you are going in a circle only to end up back where you started from.
I have found myself finally at a bend in life. I was going downstream in raging waters. I had no idea there was a bend somewhere downstream. (Not all bends are on the map in this journey. Surprise!). I have felt like giving up. I have laid down in the boat and said forget it. I thought about jumping off the boat during the storms. Then the sun would rise and I would dry out but, still going down. And here we have a bend…
Approaching the bend you think “Yes, I am turning around!” But what you soon realize is this bend is so deep and miles long you just may begin to panic or think you are going in a circle only to end up where you were. Well, honey, you will not. It’s just a very deep bend in life and you will come out with a mighty force. So, just do your best to maintain a positive energy around you by putting positive thoughts in you and ride the bend. Busy yourself with what you will do better, different or new once you are out of the deep bend. No worries…Glorious view are on the turnabout.
-Nikki (In Mindful Coffee Meditation this Morning)
Trying to date people who are not over their EX is like trying to have a romantic picnic on the hottest summer day in the middle of the woods. @#$!%^ All of these flies! I can’t enjoy myself. In more polite and nicer words (because no good Christian or Saint ever curses or thinks about it): I can’t enjoy YOU for the memories and conversations about your ex/exes flying around. If they are always on your mind I know I am not.