IF YOU’RE CRAZY AND YOU KNOW IT…

 

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Saturday Morning Coffee Musings

YOU’RE CRAZY.
IN RELATION TO YOUR DREAMS, WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU’RE CRAZY, THEY ARE SAYING YOUR DREAMS ARE BEYOND THEIR SCOPE OF POSSIBILITY, REALITY AND IMAGINATION. -NICOLE JACKSON
Yesterday, I talked to a publisher for one of my clients. He told me how it took him 3 years to leave HIS JOB as a top guy with 700 employees under him. He said people kept telling him MAN YOU’RE CRAZY. Then he said plus I was mid age. Then I just couldn’t fight it anymore and here I am. Sometimes, I pinch myself and can’t believe I’m living my dream.
Me: Usually when they say YOU’RE CRAZY, in relation to your dreams, it’s a sure thing you’re on the right path.
Him: I can see that!
Me: Yeah, just think of all the people with a success story, even in the Bible, (he’s Christian), who were told THAT’S CRAZY and things worked out.
Him: Right! It’s been 9 years. An unbelievable 9 years.
Me: YOU’RE CRAZY means it’s outside their scope of reality, possibility & imagination. That’s all.
Him: WOW. Are you in ministry?
Me: Something like that.

 

 

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Mood Swings. Don’t Push Me.

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Temperamental much? You bet!!!! We don’t know if it’s the medication or the pain so “STAND DOWN” is what we are yelling in the inside to those around us that’s adding to the irritation or in our heads they are adding to it. I mean that’s only for you to determine.

It doesn’t matter if it’s that dull nagging pain in that one area that’s been going on all day or all week. It doesn’t matter if it’s a full fledge flare and it’s going from your hand to hip. It doesn’t matter if suddenly you snap and yell “I’M TIRED OF HURTING ALL THE —- TIME!!!!! You’re in the DR Jekyll and Mr. Hyde phase. It can sneak up on you when you’re trying to open up a container with a plastic top or you see someone  jogging and you remember when you use to be able to do that. The MOOD suddenly swings and there you go. Hey, who pushed me???

What’s that noise?!!!!! Who’s running the water? Who left the light on? Are you getting smart with me? What are you looking at? And honestly, nothing more than a normal day and normal sounds and normal children/ teenagers or a spouse doing what they always do. It’s just 10 times as irritating because you’re in pain or your in reflection of the illness.

Here are my tips:
1. Hey, I’m in pain. (Well yeah, (they say), you’re in pain everyday). Here’s where you have to break it down to them I’m having a flare a high grade one or a low grade one (the nagging dull pain). So, could you keep the noise down or lose the attitude until further notice???
2. Retreat. Go to your room. Close the door. Turn the light off. I literally just did this and I’m typing this blog on my phone. My daughter seemed to get the picture right away.
3. If you have time off use it or see if you can come in later. (Honestly, I don’t know people that have this kind of job where they can come in later. But, if u do, do that!)
4. If you have a friend or relative that lives alone, and they have an extra room, run away to their home for a day or night. Tell them you just want peace ✌ and quiet.
5. Or, if I felt like getting up, I’d show u my sign for my door. It reads as follows: Flare. Enter at your own risk.
6. Find a quiet place outside, a walk if you can, the porch or patio and have your moment if you’re just feeling emotional about the changes your illness has put you through.
7. Many times I think of all the things I can do or still can do. That lifts your spirit.
8. I know it’s corny to some but, give thanks. Place to stay? Food to eat? Clothes to wear? People that care and love you? People that put up with your madness? In pain but can you see? Talk? Read? Walk? Taste good food?

So, as I lie here tonight in “I’m BATMAN” braces (they look like batman’s gloves. You know like I should be able to call for the bat car on my arm) for carpal tunnel syndrome, I hope your mood swing subsides… And mines too. I shouldn’t be typing but, I had to get this out! Free therapy!

 

 

~Nikki

Caged Bird

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The bird cage is open…SET YOURSELF FREE. I know you’ve been locked up in the cage of self pity, hatred, self loathing, sadness, depression, people pleasing, fix everything and everybody, debt, dead end job, fake/bad relationship, fear, etc etc….The door to the cage was never locked! It’s a mind game. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even sing anymore. SET YOURSELF FREE. You don’t even fly anymore. But just because you don’t doesn’t mean you can’t. Choose to SING Choose to FLY.

Monday Morning Week POW WOW

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Monday Morning WEEK POW WOW
It’s a productive week and the atmosphere is conducive for miracles & favor
I stand firm in my beliefs without stooping to low level energies
I choose peace to keep my creative ideas flowing
I feed my body good food and exercise
I operate in possibilities
I give my time and energy to worthy recipients
Money & Promotion is attracted to me like a magnet

Standing Firm without Stooping

Sunday Morning Musing & Coffee

In YOUR CHOICE of faith (or no choice) & beliefs, I believe you should stand firm in it but, I don’t believe you should attack, demean, insult opposing views. It’s possibly a sign of weakness, biases, a dislike or hate for the topic, other group or the person. Those things cause you to stoop to low blows, lashing and insults.

If you don’t like Christians and you’re having a “discussion” can you be objective or not? If you don’t like Muslims, can you be objective in your discussion? If you don’t like gay people can you be objective in your discussion?  If a person is not vegan can you have a civil discussion?  Or do you become instantly defensive? Do you become an instant jerk? An instant butt hole? Furthermore, you may have a problem if you enjoy being mean and insulting others. You may have a heart problem, a love problem and perhaps you need healing or deliverance. Perhaps, enlightenment.

The only way to stand firm in what you believe WITHOUT STOOPING is to stand firm in LOVE. Stand firm and operate in love with your attitude, your demeanor and your choice of words. If the other person is becoming defensive and offensive in their tone, language or gestures then end the conversation immediately. It’s not going anywhere but downhill from there. The next thing you know you’ll be stooping to their level of nastiness.

For the record, I believe what I believe and that’s pretty much the end of the story. YET, I’m always interested in other viewpoints mainly because I like to know how people think and why they think that way. Plus, I rarely get upset about one not sharing my views because I realize my views are mines and not theirs! You believe what you believe and that’s your story. At the end of the day can we be civil? Can we work together? Can we be kind to one another? Different viewpoints, ideals, religions, cultures, shape the world and make it very interesting. You live here and I live here now let’s do lunch.

When I find myself dealing with a person who wants to argue instead of discuss, or a person who’s decided how they are going to deal with me because of my religion or my opposing views, I JUST DON’T DEAL. 😊

~Nikki

 

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Surrounded by Stones

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When I saw the above photograph, it immediately got my attention as I searched for a quote on peace. I looked at it and thought this is how we should operate in the midst of everything that is going on around us. I named each stone as I looked at the picture and said there I am also. Peace in the midst may not be consistent for many of us but, the simple truth that you have it at times lets me know it’s always available.

Self Injection of Truth Serum: The Antidote to Lies

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When I was dating, in and out of relationships, I discovered men lie in the worst ways. Men lie and I believed the lies because well, at first I didn’t have a clue. When you’re young and you have no coaching on what to expect in the dating world, the “games” and how to protect your heart, you’re just out there on your own without sound or solid advice from people you can trust. And you end up hurt, used, and abused. Heartbreaks keep on coming like a bottomless beverage. Until you’ve had enough. Until you wise up. You learn quickly (well, that can be subject to the individual because I didn’t!) but I learned that lies flow easily from the lips of deceitful men to get whatever they want. I learned charm is a spell. Literally. And dangerous in the skilful hands of a liar.
You also learn the FEEL of a lie, the TASTE of a lie, the TOUCH of a lie, the SOUND of a lie, and the LOOK of a lie. But what do many of us do, male and female? We pretend we don’t feel, taste, hear or see any of it. And you know what you’re now doing now??? Lying to yourself.

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If you want to end a brigade of lies brought to your doorstep by others like their delivering roses when they are really dumping manure at your feet, the first step is to admit to the hypocrisy. What!!!??? Yes. The reason others can constantly lie to you is because you lie to you. After some time in the dating world, you FEEL, SEE, HEAR, TASTE, KNOW a lie but you PRETEND you don’t. You talk yourself out of it and around it and you you let it slide. You solicit the counsel of friends and wise ones but if they tell you what you don’t want to hear, you override the truth and go with the lies and excuses you tell yourself. ADDRESS THE HYPOCRISY.

One you prep yourself with the alcohol swab of admitting to hypocrisy, then inject yourself with the TRUTH ABOUT YOU. Oh I know you thought this would be about stopping the lies you allow others to tell you but here is the TRUTH about TRUTH serum, it begins with you. That’s how you know it’s working. Tell yourself the easy truth and the hard cold gut wrenching truth about you, every time, every chance and it won’t be nearly as hard to accept the truth when you are being lied to.

Let me be clear. If you want honesty be honest with yourself even when it is not pretty, not convenient and not what you want to hear. It is what you need. Becoming honest with myself about myself help me to accept the truth about the lies presented to me. It no longer mattered what I wanted, what he looked like, how long we had been together, it was what it was. When you stop pretending with yourself, you’ll stop pretending with others.

~Nikki

“Self truth is the antidote to lies.”-Nicole Jackson

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